Monday, December 26, 2011

In "His" Time..

I'm sharing my most favorite song in this year... I found this song for a wedding clip.. not mine of course :P.. 
i fell in love with this song ever since

spent your life looking for
the one thing that makes it all
worth all the tears that fall

walking down on this road
moving on stepping forward
althought it’s not that easy

* just keep holding on
just keep pressing on
just keep moving on

ada waktu untuk menangis
tuk tertawa, tuk bertahan saja
ada waktu untuk menunggu, tuk percaya
bahwa semua akan indah pada waktuNya

repeat *
ada waktu untuk menangis
tuk tertawa, tuk bertahan saja
ada waktu untuk menunggu, tuk percaya
bahwa semua akan indah

repeat reff
repeat *

pada waktuNya


May this song be the courage for you too..

Miracle Flows In My Heart And In My Life

Good afternoon fellas..

it's already passed the Joyful time of the year.. a bit late but i would love to say "Merry Christmas to you.. ^^ ".
I miss writing again. So many things 'running' around my mind lately hahaha... some about my country culture.. some.. because of many other things that happens beyond my imagination.

Maybe i'll share a little of my gratitude feeling this year. Of course you all know i'm in not my best situation right now.. yet..i believe Jesus made this year the best year to grow my faith in Him. I realize this year.. i have more impossible situation than i ever had before. But in this impossible days of my life i feel i never lost His loving touch. My savings that evaporate into thin air 1,5 years ago..Jesus brought it back .. He even double the number. But..Is it enough for me to save the whole problem? no, not yet.. but thru' this, He remind me that miracle still exist and He makes miracle just in the right time to help me get through another day.

Yes.. of course i feel the fear .. and yes of course there are moments when i felt like facing dead ends.... but In the end.. I made it through the day.. and He never stop gives me strength to keep moving.

As far as i walk in this path of life, Jesus never leave me and when i feel so alone... i pray to Jesus to show me His presence and stop this lonely feeling.

And so... thank you Jesus for Christmas... Your birth has been such a miracle for all mankind and will always will be..

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

My Long Journey and Ours..

It's a long and winding road we travel..and in between we heard many bad news pouring our lives ..  All those heartache and sorrow might be the cloud..It's reality life we travel.. And so.. here's a little something for us on the road.. hope it will keep us save and reach the final end.. See you there Mate !!

When u laugh at life you reduce problems down to their proper size #Author JL Ford

Dear my problems: "My God is bigger than you!" #ihatequotes

Usually the worst things that have happened "to" you, are the best things that could happen "for" you. See the big picture! #ihatequotes

When we know ourselves,we can better recognize what makes us happy & what we DONT need in our lives. #Author J.L. Ford

Most important in life, God. Most beautiful attire, Smile. Greatest asset, Faith. Most powerful force, Love. #ihatequotes

Don't judge someones past, when you havent walked their journey! #ihatequotes

If the grass is greener on the other side, it's because you're gazing thru the lens of envy! #TheSW

You'll never know it's wrong until you try it. Give everything a chance until it gives you a reason not to. #ihatequotes

You can't force yourself to love everyone , you can't force everyone to love you. Be yourself , be loved for who you really are #ihatequotes

A great sacrifise comes with a great love. So if u found someone that willing to sacrifise his life for u, then u found God. #Edwin Lau

When you are down......get up! When you are down.......get up! And when you are down.......get up again! #Learn To Be Alone

Life is not about discovering our talents, it is about pushing our talents to the limit and discovering our genius. #ihatequotes

Wasted time isn't wasted if you learn from your mistakes and make a different choice today. #ihatequotes

"If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes..there is always another chance for you." #TheSW

Sometimes God doesn't give us what we want because we're aiming too low. He loves us too much to let us settle. #TheSW

Don't cry over the past, cry to get over the past. Don't smile to hide the pain, smile to heal the pain! #ihatequotes

Whatever is meant to be yours will eventually find its way to your door. #TimingIsEverything

Barriers are those things we see when we take our eyes off the goal. Stay FOCUSED! #ihatequotes

Once in a while right in the middle of an ordinary life, love can sneak up and give you a fairytale... Don't give up! #ihatequotes

God designed one person special for you, just be patient until that person shows up in your life. #ihatequotes

Maybe there are no right moments, right guys, right answers. Maybe sometimes you just have to say what’s in your heart. #ihatequotes

The only thing anyone should ever be able to steal from u is your heart. Your dignity worth are not up for grabs. #TheSW

Believe in people, they will hurt you. Believe in God, He will heal you. #ihatequotes

Don't let life bruise you! Just because you feel mistreated or even unloved.. NEVER let life make you UNGRATEFUL! NEVER! #ihatequotes

Focus on what gifts God has given you & your gift gets bigger. Focus on what God has given others & your gifts seem smaller! #ihatequotes

#taken and compile from Twitter

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Monday, June 6, 2011

The Art of Sickness

This is my 3rd weeks I'm not feeling healthy .. I've got sprue 2 weeks ago.. I thought it was nothing, but a week ago it all change to white thing in my throat.. My body just can't take it.. I went to 2 doctors to fix this.. Well..I'm in better condition now.. but when i met the first doctor..the diagnosed is quite a "slap moment" for me.. He told me, i might be having diphtheria (but Thanks God I'm not).. and for that i need to be hospitalized.. Wew nightmare !!!! Not to mention.. i have to finish 1 project for my customer..

And not so well condition i tried my best to finished the project as i promise on friday.. Then, i asked one of the Office Boy to help me sent it to the courier, since i couldn't be in the office that day. But guess what??!'s not happening.. hahahah.. the courier decided to pick it up on Saturday when my customer really need it it the most .. =_=!! Double bad news for me.

Anyway.... in the time being.. I've got bed rest for few days.. During these bed rest moment, i realize that no matter how much you work to earn money.. it will never worth the health.. and no matter how hard you try to plan something.. there's always something happen and it'll screw up all the plan.. Sometimes all we got to do is just doing our very best.. not over it.. and just let God do the rest.. He's the only charm for all the problem and situation. We can have hope.. we can set the goal.. but remember to also bring it to God's presence.. asking for His approval.. because without it, big chances are we screwed it up ourself.

During these time, i also found the peace with dad and mom.. I didn't care who's fault it is  for whatever happen between us now.. but i..stepped up..and asked for apology .. I'm in peace with myself now.

One step at a time... Jesus gives me a courage to move forward..  ^^

My Sweet Dream

I have sweet dreams too.. You know.. and So this is my sweet dream version

A place where i called home... a family to come home too.. a smile to cherish everyday.. no tears.. just family..and my husband to be..hahha

A dream wedding will be held on the best view on earth.. with warm family..Of course all in white.. soft purple and peach color..The bluest sky on top...Sincere touch of Soap bubble from the kids that playing with each others loudly :)

Softly they play this swaying song called "Fly Love"
and we'll all be dancing ...a beautiful dance..

PS:I miss you .. i love you... I'm waiting for you my Prince (who ever you are)

Monday, May 30, 2011

Let There Be Tears

It wipes away my sorrow....
It wash away my sadness....
It tells me I'm still human....
It's shed some tears tonight, Dear ....

Quotes from One Litre of Tears:

When my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where i can do the best I can.
From now on, I’ll deliberate slowly.
I won’t be impatients.
I won’t be greedy.
I won’t give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

A House and A Home

Lately I've been dreaming to buy a house .Since my family bankruptcy years ago, me and my dad move in this temporary house. Next year will be the last of the contract of this house. I don't know where else to move ....and due to last year incident, i don't know if i can manage to get enough money in my saving account to buy a house.

While I'm thinking and calculating.. the house that i really want to buy is actually a "Home". Not just house of bricks. I miss the time when i have mom and dad together.. Sharing stories and laughter. Dear God knows how much i miss a warm home.. Dear God definitely know how much i wish my life is normal. I know, this pray goes out to many kids out there with broken family.. I know how it feel right now..

When i was a child i never knew that this will effect me.. but now i know how much this effect my personal life. I don't know how to tell this to others and not having low self esteem about it.

So today... my priority wishlist is a chance to come "Home". Home where my family can have dinner and feast at the table..and living room to be together with..



No cure..Yet.. like all wound...It'll heal as time goes by
Give it time..take a rest..
It will all be beautiful in His time

Letting Go...

The hardest to letting go the one you love the most..

I've been through this feeling several time.. never get easier.. All i can do is asking to my self.. should i? How could he let me go after all that we've been through..??

No one seems to answer.. but i think God's whisper gently saying.. "The best is yet to come.. The right destiny is still on it's way. The puzzle hasn't solved yet.." and for that.. i should wait. Wait..and slowly letting go the love..

I know i have a lot of love and commitment when I'm in the relationship.. i wish i could find someone who's willing to do the same.. The one who commit and love me for who i am. The problem is.. i haven't found one yet.. And most of the time i have to let go.. It's painful..!! Indeed it's painful ...!!

Let's pray to God that i can survive another day to live and be thankful for what ever worst that come to me.. because it's only a journey.. Someday I'll get pass through all this.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Trap in a Girl Body ..Burden with Man's Responsibility

This article was written few months a go. I haven't finished writing this as i just fall a sleep that night.

Here's something i said that night as i speak to my loved one. In general, this is something i found have been faced by thousand single mothers, top business women, or simply a woman who has mouths to feed. This women tends to be the man in the house. Every decision, every financial responsibility, and every future plan need to be made by themselves. This is the shoes that need to be taken whether they like it or not.

Women figure however they are more adaptable to the condition. Women are more likely stronger and easily to find jobs to make small money to feed the needs.. Street fighter skill might be needed sometimes hahahahaha..Well that's just the extreme way to say how women this days are tougher.

The problem is, women have lots of extra feeling in the middle of struggle sometimes. So of course the crying session is always becoming the drama opening. is.. at first.. but yes.. we deal with the problem in the end.

Stand Up Ladies.. !!! Let's hit it !! ^^

Happily Ever After

My first article after happy journey I've gone through.. But Spring is up..!! and My love life is not so spring anymore..i'm back to write again.. :)

The most sold out idea is to have prince charming come and fight for a lady.. She can be princess to simply maid. But the Prince Charming will always be ready to fight for her.. That's such a beautiful idea..and every little girl read this or heard this from their mommy most of the time. Yet... reality doesn't always have a happy ending.

My Friends.. girlfriends..are mostly already married or expecting a baby. Some are still preparing the engagement and be newly wed this days.. And so i heard the story is always sweet..romantic..and never expected.. Of course the brave of the Groom side is always needed to progress the relationship. Therefore i know that Happily Ever After do exist.. but.. when it comes to my love department.. hmm.. i'm still wondering if there's any Prince Charming who's willing to fight for me. Yeah..the clock is ticking.. and so is my other problem haven't been solved yet ..

Life is being complex for me lately.. Somehow i don't know how to solve 'em all.. But once again.. all i have to do is doing my best and let God do the rest... Happily Ever After do exist someway..somehow..

Oh and BTW, living proof of fairytale should be Prince William and Kate Middleton
may they live happily ever after ^^