Monday, May 30, 2011

Let There Be Tears

It wipes away my sorrow....
It wash away my sadness....
It tells me I'm still human....
It's shed some tears tonight, Dear ....

Quotes from One Litre of Tears:

When my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where i can do the best I can.
From now on, I’ll deliberate slowly.
I won’t be impatients.
I won’t be greedy.
I won’t give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

A House and A Home

Lately I've been dreaming to buy a house .Since my family bankruptcy years ago, me and my dad move in this temporary house. Next year will be the last of the contract of this house. I don't know where else to move ....and due to last year incident, i don't know if i can manage to get enough money in my saving account to buy a house.

While I'm thinking and calculating.. the house that i really want to buy is actually a "Home". Not just house of bricks. I miss the time when i have mom and dad together.. Sharing stories and laughter. Dear God knows how much i miss a warm home.. Dear God definitely know how much i wish my life is normal. I know, this pray goes out to many kids out there with broken family.. I know how it feel right now..

When i was a child i never knew that this will effect me.. but now i know how much this effect my personal life. I don't know how to tell this to others and not having low self esteem about it.

So today... my priority wishlist is a chance to come "Home". Home where my family can have dinner and feast at the table..and living room to be together with..



No cure..Yet.. like all wound...It'll heal as time goes by
Give it time..take a rest..
It will all be beautiful in His time

Letting Go...

The hardest to letting go the one you love the most..

I've been through this feeling several time.. never get easier.. All i can do is asking to my self.. should i? How could he let me go after all that we've been through..??

No one seems to answer.. but i think God's whisper gently saying.. "The best is yet to come.. The right destiny is still on it's way. The puzzle hasn't solved yet.." and for that.. i should wait. Wait..and slowly letting go the love..

I know i have a lot of love and commitment when I'm in the relationship.. i wish i could find someone who's willing to do the same.. The one who commit and love me for who i am. The problem is.. i haven't found one yet.. And most of the time i have to let go.. It's painful..!! Indeed it's painful ...!!

Let's pray to God that i can survive another day to live and be thankful for what ever worst that come to me.. because it's only a journey.. Someday I'll get pass through all this.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Trap in a Girl Body ..Burden with Man's Responsibility

This article was written few months a go. I haven't finished writing this as i just fall a sleep that night.

Here's something i said that night as i speak to my loved one. In general, this is something i found have been faced by thousand single mothers, top business women, or simply a woman who has mouths to feed. This women tends to be the man in the house. Every decision, every financial responsibility, and every future plan need to be made by themselves. This is the shoes that need to be taken whether they like it or not.

Women figure however they are more adaptable to the condition. Women are more likely stronger and easily to find jobs to make small money to feed the needs.. Street fighter skill might be needed sometimes hahahahaha..Well that's just the extreme way to say how women this days are tougher.

The problem is, women have lots of extra feeling in the middle of struggle sometimes. So of course the crying session is always becoming the drama opening. is.. at first.. but yes.. we deal with the problem in the end.

Stand Up Ladies.. !!! Let's hit it !! ^^

Happily Ever After

My first article after happy journey I've gone through.. But Spring is up..!! and My love life is not so spring anymore..i'm back to write again.. :)

The most sold out idea is to have prince charming come and fight for a lady.. She can be princess to simply maid. But the Prince Charming will always be ready to fight for her.. That's such a beautiful idea..and every little girl read this or heard this from their mommy most of the time. Yet... reality doesn't always have a happy ending.

My Friends.. girlfriends..are mostly already married or expecting a baby. Some are still preparing the engagement and be newly wed this days.. And so i heard the story is always sweet..romantic..and never expected.. Of course the brave of the Groom side is always needed to progress the relationship. Therefore i know that Happily Ever After do exist.. but.. when it comes to my love department.. hmm.. i'm still wondering if there's any Prince Charming who's willing to fight for me. Yeah..the clock is ticking.. and so is my other problem haven't been solved yet ..

Life is being complex for me lately.. Somehow i don't know how to solve 'em all.. But once again.. all i have to do is doing my best and let God do the rest... Happily Ever After do exist someway..somehow..

Oh and BTW, living proof of fairytale should be Prince William and Kate Middleton
may they live happily ever after ^^