Thursday, September 7, 2017

The Train is Here..and It Won't Stay Long

I know I have to stop looking back
I know there is nothing left for me to stay
I know I was being unwanted
I know I have only me to be happy

I do not know what's going to happen
I do know I have to move forward
I do realize the next stop will provide a better life
I do believe that my God already wait for me there

I can still feel sad these days, but..
I can not dwelling in my feeling forever
I can still missing the past, yet..
I can not stay to wait any longer

I wish to say goodbye nicely
I wish you well..
I wish you happiness..
I wish to leave you and your memories behind

Sunday, March 19, 2017

It's raining inside..

I realize how lonely i am..
I envy those who already found someone

I stare at my family photograph
I feel coldness and empty feeling..

Sometimes I just want to feel the warm of love
Sometimes I thought I found love..
Sometimes I recreate what happiness is inside of me..
Sometimes it works..but I know it is not real..a temporary imagination

I asked God to take this heartache away..
I asked God to make my life shorter
I asked God apology for not being the daughter He wants me to be
I asked God ..a strength if i have to stay here longer than I expected

He didn't answer..
He might answer a way He knows
He could have been answer me..yet I didn't notice
He should have all the answer..isn't it?

I just feel lonely..unwanted..