Saturday, August 28, 2010

Love is..

Love is something you think about the first time you wake up in the morning

Love is...every goodnight kiss

Love is to walk hand in hand.. riding a bike together with laughter..

Love is ..a house filled with joyfullest

Love is to talk with them for hours and never get bored..

Love is a special gourmet you cook for special person

Love is to shed tears off their cheek

Love is to hold 'em tight to say everything is going to be okay

Love is sleepless night when you can't see them

Love is a smile when you imagine someone

Love is to miss somebody constantly..

Love is to remember everything they love..

Love.. is an everlasting gifts ..

Love creates an "us" without destroying a "me"

LOVE is .. something you experience..has no definition..

LOVE is a 'verb' .. You'll have to work on LOVE everyday in your life...

Galatians 5:22-23

 22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

Human Capacity..

Have you ever wonder :
1. Why you born alone..?
2. Why you are the only child in the family?
Have ever questioning yourself
1. Are you happy being single?
2. Are you going to be happier as a couple?
Have you ever think about
1. When this problem ever be solved?
2. When the happiness start accompany your foot step?

None of us wonder..questioning..or think the same thing.. because... We don't have the same problem..We don't live the same life..We don't walk at the same path..

We have our own capacity.. None of us having the same equal capacity to carry the face the struggle.. Many times i felt so alone..but i manage to smile at the end of the day. Quite often to feel like there's too many problem, all at the same time..yet...i still keep some bag of laugh in my closet.

A coworker asked me yesterday about how i feel being the only child in the family.. She needed an answer to decide whether she's going to get pregnant of her second child or not.. I answered her at a very simple sentence.."Ask God.. Is your first daughter going to be strong enough to face everything on her self when she grow up?" will be best if God decide it for her instead trying to find answer from me..or anybody else.

As for me..i realize something.. I realize i must have been given big capacity that Jesus let me be alone until today. So many thing i have to face.. but He make everything's okay up to this day. So what are we talking about now? What is Human Capacity?

Human capacity in my opinion is integration of individual's skills, human intellectual, judgment, and technical aptitude to accommodate life. We are a cup..a glass ..a jar..a container of Life. Our capacity is given but also developing through time.. and of course depends on your willingness to be a better person day by day. Let your self questioning everything in life.. Have your self big curiosity.. Run your self with a courage to learn everything in life... But make sure you have settled a strong foundation first!! It's important to learn and knowing everything..but without 'strong foundation'..without guideline.. you will only run in circle..wandering around without a clue is useless.

So if you feel so low this days.. remember that you have special capacity. The problem and everything that  has been given to you already measure at the right proportion. Don't give up..!! Praise Jesus..praise your self. With Him..we can fight the world !!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Knocking on Heavens Door

A couple of days a go.. i got involved in a chat about death. It's a very hard subject. I myself ..haven't prepared enough courage to face fatality. We all are immortal on earth.. The D-day eventually will come for us whether we are ready or not. Even though the idea of having final rest from of all our problem and sorrow is delighting..but 'death' is something more than meets the eyes.

As a human being, i shall never know anything about life after death..but somehow i have my own understanding that there will be Judgment Day. Before The Judgment Day.. The death spirit and us.. will wait at the 'pit' stop. And then..There will be time come for all of us to face The Book of Life at The Final Gate.

The Judgment day is is the final and eternal judgment by God of all nations.It will take place after the resurrection of the dead and the Second Coming of Christ as it was written at Revelation 20:12–15.
12And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works.
 13And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works.
 14And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death.
 15And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.

Revelation is definitely one final book of New Testament that remind us to consistent evaluating our daily basis life performance. This will continually become my concern of how i choose and decide everything in life. Because the final....the ending... has to be the the great finale.As it only happen one time. There will be no regrets afterward.

So.. before i face my God Almighty ..there are preparation to make.. The true Question is..What will you do? You know believe this will surely happen.. if you know when is your final day..what are you going to do about it? If there are only seven (7) thing to do before you pass away..what will it be?

I choose the number of seven here because the repeated occurrence of the number seven contributes to the overall unity of Revelation. While several numbers stand out—3, 4, 7, 10, 12, 24, 144, 1000—seven appears to have a special significance. There are seven churches symbolized by seven lamp stands (1:20); the churches have seven angels symbolized by seven stars (1:20); there are seven spirits before the throne of God, symbolized by seven lamps (4:5), and also by seven horns and seven eyes (5:6); the judgment scroll has seven seals (5:1) with a corresponding set of seven "seal judgments"; the seventh seal unleashes seven "trumpet judgments," which are heralded by seven angels (8:1-2); the seventh trumpet unleashes seven "bowl judgments," where the bowls of God's wrath are poured out by seven angels (15:1); there are seven mysterious thunders about which John is not permitted to say anything (10:3); 7,000 people are killed in an earthquake (11:13); the dragon has seven heads and seven diadems on his heads (12:3); and the beast from the sea has seven heads (13:1). `

As for my self..this is my 7 to-do list :
1. Understand what He wants.. a continual conversation with Him every single hour and minute..(haven't pray often enough)
2. Read His manual book a.k.a bible (try my best at reading proverbs by far.. )
3. Applied His words and have faith of a seed that can move the mountain (faith is to believe in miracle at the lowest point of your life..and it's not easy at all.. and His words.. can be done if i have a crystal heart ..which i haven't come close to this point too)
4. Preparing the best gifts for my Mom and Dad.. provide them the standard happiness i know they would love to have (don't have sufficient material yet..)
5. List people whom i love in life..and do something for them as much as i could (try my best dear..) so i know if tomorrow never comes...i already show them how much i love them
6. Come close to the unknown friends..that haven't been touch by God..that haven't feel ever be loved before.. give them my share of time and love and courage to see the world to a new perspective to make sure they pass along the good deeds.
7. Taking my final time .. go to a place where i can just sit down..overview all my life and all i have left for the people..give my final thought a peaceful rest to make sure I'm ready coming back to the place where I'm going..

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Life of Guitar Lessons..

The guitar consists of a body with a rigid neck to which the strings, generally six in number but sometimes more, are attached. this simple instrument has been one of the required music ensemble in life.. Big band to simple jam session use guitar to describe indescribable feeling.

I love the guitar since i don't know when.. I used to love piano still is but guitar has always produce the mesmerizing tunes in my heart. Doesn't take a lot ....just a simple chord from a simple song can be so heavy and meaningful. I once learn how to play takes a lot of finger skill to play it..wasn't as easy as it looks at all. The string might end up hurting your finger too. But it feels great once you know how to play a song. My Dad is actually quite good at playing guitar. He taught me a few simple chord.

Ok...I'm not going to teach any chord lesson here..because I'm not an expert at all at playing guitar. I just want to share my stupid thought on Life through Guitar.. through one ensemble that i love the most. Every single thing in Guitar was made with precision and art skill. One good guitar ..starting form..the curve..the hollow part and the neck string.. is produced with every guitar produce it's own vibrate. Just like us..a unique human being that carefully made by our mighty God..vibrate to one another in our own way..

A person can attach to one single guitar because it has been a life companion. When the blue days and the hardships follow your foot step..a guitar can complete you in a way. Every now and then artist..start their moment from an acoustic guitar. One of the cheap instrument that usually came from generation to generation. A legacy from fatherhood.

Guitars are recognized as a primary instrument in genres such as blues, bluegrass, country, flamenco, jazz, jota, mariachi, reggae, rock, soul, and many forms of pop. So this one simple thing..that you can carry around everywhere .... really can put a smile...or break down some tears.. or go nuts with .. The melody..the tunes..complete every remembrance in our heart.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Broken String Lullaby

"Absence from whom we love is worse than death, and frustrates hope severer than despair."  ~William Cowper

It's not about how much you want a person..
but it's how much you miss the person that count..
It's not about how many times i said i love you..
but how much i miss you now..

I miss you in my heart..
In a place where all the love lies..
I miss you in silence
In a state where golden lies..

My senses..
My wishes..
My Thoughts...
Will remain keep the truths..
of how much i miss

It's not about how much i want you..
but it's how much i miss you..
It's not about how many times i said i love you..
but how bad i want to say " i  miss you " now..

What is the opposite of two?  A lonely me, a lonely you.  ~Richard Wilbur

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Hillsong Concert

On Saturday August 14, 2010 i made a rush decision to take my part in a Charity Concert. Hillsong Charity Concert for House of Hope .. A house dedicated for orphanage children.

I don't know why ..but it's like a calling to came in to the concert.. a friend of mine Lenny Gunawan message me at FB around 4 PM and i still haven't decide to go ..5 PM i suddenly took a step to made a quick bath..and rushed to the Concert Spot.. it suppose to started  at 6 PM but i decided to bought the ticket like in 6.30 PM...

I guess i really can't fought the calling... Haha.. so i went in and enjoy the first part of the concert.. A charity part where we get to know House of Hope.. The dance and choir performance from this orphanage touches our heart... House of hope it self was funded only by pension fund of a teacher. She put her heart and soul to take care of this children..fed them..funded their school and give them love..a piece of heaven on earth for this kids.

The second part of the Concert is of course Hillsong showed up...with a rocking guitar performance..
I couldn't help my self to move forward and enjoy the rest of the performance.. I never really listen to their song.. i was only knew one or two song but.. they make me 'jump' that night.. 'Jump' in a good way of course .. There was 2 song i really like through out the performance "From The Inside Out" and "Mighty to Save".. But other numbers like.."one Way", "Take it All", "King of Majesty", and "Hosanna" was also awesome !!

After the first round performance, there was Pastor Lee preached about following The God Game Plan..Not long after that..came an altar calling to recommit our love to Jesus.. and yeap i did move forward to recommit myself.. Cos' somehow i know that i really know my Jesus from my past experience and He's the only thing that is real when others left and consume me with all of their inner thought.

The Concert went great.. not because it's real Hillsong or not.. but because of the atmosphere.. The Ballroom was full and 85% of it is under the age of 25.. It was awesome how God move this young people... The Closing Performance was unbelievable too.. None of us wants to leave the ballroom because we really enjoy every single part of the concert.. Jesus name has been glorified above all.. !!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

The Suit and Myself

I am Iron Man. The suit and I are one. -Tony Stark

Trying to push my self to write again.. It's 3:18 in the i try to keep up with the time here..

I Love the quote... Because like it or not..we live everyday wearing 'something'... There's always something to be 'cover' on our daily basis. If You say it's a mask.. you cover your true face from the world...If you say it's a cover your body from the world.. A good gown will definitely cover and correct our true body form to make it more presentable to the world.. A good shoes will cover our foot step..

All of that matter is because how bad we want to look good for others...for community.. for society.. for the world.. We make our own style because we thought that this will be our trademark.. Because the style can hide our deepest sorrow that we don't want to share with others.

Somehow the suit determine our self more than our personality..
If we can look each others eyes everyday.. we won't bothering our self try to cover anything... Because then the eyes will tell me the truth...the sadness and the joy..the real you deep inside..

What do 'They" say about this??

1. “They're targeting guys who dress like me -- guys who dress hip-hop. Put a murderer in a suit, and he's still a murderer. It sends a bad message to kids.” - Allen Iverson

2. “Nowadays everyone's got the nose rings and the colored hair, so for me to wear the suit and tie is a different way to go.”-Sam Raimi

3. “It embarrasses me to think of all those years I was buying silk suits and alligator shoes that were hurting my feet; cars that I just parked, and the dust would just build up on them.” - Washington Irving

4. “My father used to say, 'Let them see you and not the suit. That should be secondary.” - Cary Grant

5. “I buy expensive suits. They just look cheap on me.” - Warren Buffet..

And so for now...Me and My Suit are one because i want it to.. Because there's something i want to keep and lock away in my heart. One day.. i hope i found someone who will see me beyond the look and the suit.

Well ... it's 4:09 AM.. and i just wish to find the suit that suit me best today.. a piece of textile to cover the engraver of my heart...

Happy Thursday fellas...