Love Letter of 2012

Tomorrow will be the last day of 2012...

I have found that this has been one of my best year for the last 6 years of my life.
I thank God for every blessings and answers..
for making my hollowness to joyfulness ..
Now, i have a lot of hope from my hopeless days..
Walk with me for many...many ...many years to come Lord. 

Dear God,

I have found freedom whenever i count your blessings

I have found happiness in every single sweats and teardrops ..whenever i realize i only have to please You

I have found joy for Your plan is to prosper me and not to harm me, plan to give me hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)

I have found gratefulness every time Your loving hand help me to get through my hardest days 

Thank you Jesus.. Help me to get through 2013 and many years to come..for i can not do this on my own..

With all my heart,

Febe Yuan

Yes.. i did it My Way

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
"No, oh no not me,
I did it my way".

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!


 


That was lyrics my Dad used to sing when i was just a little girl. I heard this song again lately and fell in love one more time with the lyrics. I sing this song in my hard days and remind myself that there'll be time when all the tears will subside and i find everything in my life is amusing. 

Thank you Jesus.. You've add one more year into my life. I believe there will be more to me in life ahead. And..no mater what.. i know You will always be there for me.

Life Learned Lesson

I have always holding grudge and anger for people who look down on  (or at least the people I thougt were looking down on ) my family and myself.

Even though sometimes I feel not that capable at things, I have always find myself as a special person with gifts and talents that God himself give to me.

And so often times I feel I have to defend myself againts a lot of things.. But sometimes what I think it isn't the truth. Not to mention that I also might have missjudge others.

As the time went by.. I feel that this days I have to stop myself from listening others opinion.. I want to be me and love who I am. I put effort to redeem and loving myself rather than being guilty if I'm not in somebody else's standard. I said to myself that nothing is wrong with me..and if somebody really know me, that they know the real me they will love me for who I am. Not because I'm the person that they want me to be.

With that in mind,  I should also stop use my standard upon somebody else's life. They have their own significant talents and gifts as much as I do. Tolerancy is what I have learned from this piece of mind.

Another thing I have learned is..the key to life and happiness is simply to know who we really are and make a celebration everytime we get to know ourself.

Society standard is just something human made .. But each of us is God bare hand made and you and I should very proud of who we are.

I'm not beautiful nor perfect but I am made in Jesus and I shall proud of it~Febe Yuan

A Leader Disappointment

i have learnt these days... the higher our position...the more responsibilities we have... We seems tend to disappoint more people too. Every thing that we try to do somehow can't please everyone. We tried our best.. we sort it through and still all we hear is complaints.


So if.. me at my age.. with only responsible as curriculum team feels these way... then.. how about our Mr. President ? or even more.. God ?? Can you imagine how many people is under their responsibility ?
And as a leader.. someone at the top is actually never try to make bad decision.. They have their own situation to look at at larger scale... They have their own judgement despise all the suggestion... They actually tried to please all of their people needs..yet... their people miss understand them easily.

Now i know a little how that must have felt for the leader of our nation ....." DISAPPOINTMENT ". ... i guess God would have feel the same too when He tried so hard to look after every each one of us and all we do is complaint to God every single day. When He made decision to sacrifice His only son Jesus.. it was for us too but we tend to took it for granted. While God making bigger and better plan for our life.. we tend to complaint how hard our life is...

You know.. i feel very lucky now.. that i have my chances to go through a lot of things lately. All the bad stuff all the hard work..all the experiences and new career opportunity..has lead me to understand a lot of things.. to see things in a new dimension.. in a new perspective. I grew a lot... and i Thank God for it..

Yet... my life still growing far from perfect.. i still also need to learn self controlling a lot more these days..

Happiness

" I don't talk, I don't see, I don't hear unimportant bad things surround me to keep my happiness alive.."

Technology these days, making sure any news and message comes to our hearing and sight instantly. But any news also means everything... including bad and unimportant message.

Not only receive bad news, we also somehow spread bad news and message.. easily.

Question is.. Which news or information that actually useful or important for us ?

Out filtering system need to be highly alert every second these days.. Not for someone else but for our sake.. Happiness doesn't grow out of bad things.. It grow out of Good Things...
Keep it in good heart and soil 'em with good things.

Have a ╠╣αppy Ѽ day !! Remember that happiness isn't destination it's a mood.. keep your self away form negativity !!

Not For The Same Reason

If there's one thing we should do only once in our life..
is to cry at least ...
not for the same reason..

Dearest Mom and Dad

Pride is..not how much i can spend the money
It's how much i can save and use it to make u happy ..dear Mom..n Dad..

Happy is ...not about how loud i can laugh
It is when i see you proud of me.. dear Mom..n Dad..

Success is ..not about fame and glory
It is ..when i can make your wish come true..dear Mom..n Dad..

Love is not about how many hug and kisses i received
It is .. when you give your life to raise me and stand by me in my bad moment..dear Mom..n Dad

Grateful is ..not about give thanks for being healthy and wealthy
It is.. when i thank God i have you as my parents..dear Mom n Dad

Thank you Mom.. thank you Dad.. through out all problem we've gone through..i feel at my best because i'm your child

PS : i'll always be a child for you Mom.. n Dad..

CHOICE, CHANCE, and CHANGE

I remember i saw this quote one day and i remember it ever since. I'm in the part of life where i need to make CHOICE to take CHANCE and CHANGE my life.

Our life is always about choices. Some choices brings happiness some are seemingly tempting some are just brings sorrow. As we grow older we are our own decision maker. Not easy to choose out of these choices because there are emotion, feelings, situation and logic involve.

A wise one know how to make right choices.. but it takes practices and learning process from other experience to decide whether we are going to take right choice or not. As in our 20's.. passion and tension takes rule of our life that we tend to make bad choices. But sometimes we have to make this bad choices to take chances and not regreting things as our life gets older.

Those chances that we take lead us to who we are at the end of the days. Chances that show us the consequences. All of those things will add more pages to our story book of life. Some experiences that are worthy enough to Change our life.. to be a better person for God, for our loved one, and for others.