Life Learned Lesson

I have always holding grudge and anger for people who look down on  (or at least the people I thougt were looking down on ) my family and myself.

Even though sometimes I feel not that capable at things, I have always find myself as a special person with gifts and talents that God himself give to me.

And so often times I feel I have to defend myself againts a lot of things.. But sometimes what I think it isn't the truth. Not to mention that I also might have missjudge others.

As the time went by.. I feel that this days I have to stop myself from listening others opinion.. I want to be me and love who I am. I put effort to redeem and loving myself rather than being guilty if I'm not in somebody else's standard. I said to myself that nothing is wrong with me..and if somebody really know me, that they know the real me they will love me for who I am. Not because I'm the person that they want me to be.

With that in mind,  I should also stop use my standard upon somebody else's life. They have their own significant talents and gifts as much as I do. Tolerancy is what I have learned from this piece of mind.

Another thing I have learned is..the key to life and happiness is simply to know who we really are and make a celebration everytime we get to know ourself.

Society standard is just something human made .. But each of us is God bare hand made and you and I should very proud of who we are.

I'm not beautiful nor perfect but I am made in Jesus and I shall proud of it~Febe Yuan

A Leader Disappointment

i have learnt these days... the higher our position...the more responsibilities we have... We seems tend to disappoint more people too. Every thing that we try to do somehow can't please everyone. We tried our best.. we sort it through and still all we hear is complaints.


So if.. me at my age.. with only responsible as curriculum team feels these way... then.. how about our Mr. President ? or even more.. God ?? Can you imagine how many people is under their responsibility ?
And as a leader.. someone at the top is actually never try to make bad decision.. They have their own situation to look at at larger scale... They have their own judgement despise all the suggestion... They actually tried to please all of their people needs..yet... their people miss understand them easily.

Now i know a little how that must have felt for the leader of our nation ....." DISAPPOINTMENT ". ... i guess God would have feel the same too when He tried so hard to look after every each one of us and all we do is complaint to God every single day. When He made decision to sacrifice His only son Jesus.. it was for us too but we tend to took it for granted. While God making bigger and better plan for our life.. we tend to complaint how hard our life is...

You know.. i feel very lucky now.. that i have my chances to go through a lot of things lately. All the bad stuff all the hard work..all the experiences and new career opportunity..has lead me to understand a lot of things.. to see things in a new dimension.. in a new perspective. I grew a lot... and i Thank God for it..

Yet... my life still growing far from perfect.. i still also need to learn self controlling a lot more these days..