Toast Post In Life

In "His" Time..

2011-12-26T04:01:00.000-08:00

I'm sharing my most favorite song in this year... I found this song for a wedding clip.. not mine of course :P..

i fell in love with this song ever since

spent your life looking for

the one thing that makes it all

worth all the tears that fall

walking down on this road

moving on stepping forward

althought it’s not that easy

* just keep holding on

just keep pressing on

just keep moving on

reff:

ada waktu untuk menangis

tuk tertawa, tuk bertahan saja

ada waktu untuk menunggu, tuk percaya

bahwa semua akan indah pada waktuNya

repeat *

ada waktu untuk menangis

tuk tertawa, tuk bertahan saja

ada waktu untuk menunggu, tuk percaya

bahwa semua akan indah

repeat reff

repeat *

pada waktuNya

Source: http://liriklaguindonesia.net/ivan-handojo-pada-waktunya.htm#ixzz1hdolqPYS

May this song be the courage for you too..dear..

Miracle Flows In My Heart And In My Life

2011-12-26T03:30:00.000-08:00

Good afternoon fellas..

it's already pass the Joyful time of the year.. a bit late but i would love to say "Merry Christmas to you.. ^^ ".
I miss writing again. So many things 'running' around my mind lately hahaha... some about my country culture.. some.. because of many other things that happens beyond my imagination.

Maybe i'll share a little of my gratitude feeling this year. Of course you all know i'm in not my best situation right now.. yet..i believe Jesus made this year the best year to grow my faith in Him. I realize this year.. i have more impossible situation than i ever had before..yet in this impossible days of my life i feel i never loose His loving touch.. things that gone 1,5 years ago.. He brought it back to my saving and double the number. Is it enough for me to save the whole problem? no not yet.. but for me.. it's quite impossible to happen yet He show me many times.. from little things that miracle still does exist.. Not much but He make that miracle just in time to help me get through the day.

Yes.. of course i feel the fear .. and yes of course there are moments felt like dead end.... but just to make it through the day.. give me strength to keep moving...

As far as i walk in this path of life Jesus never leave me and when i feel so alone... i pray to Jesus to show me His presence and stop this lonely feeling.

And so... thank you Jesus for this year Christmas... Your birth has been such a miracle for all mankind and will always will be..

My Long Journey and Ours..

2011-06-28T13:17:00.000-07:00

It's a long and winding road we travel..and in between we heard many bad news pouring our lives .. All those heartache and sorrow might be the cloud..It's reality life we travel.. And so.. here's a little something for us on the road.. hope it will keep us save and reach the final end.. See you there Mate !!

When u laugh at life you reduce problems down to their proper size #Author JL Ford

Dear my problems: "My God is bigger than you!" #ihatequotes

Usually the worst things that have happened "to" you, are the best things that could happen "for" you. See the big picture! #ihatequotes

When we know ourselves,we can better recognize what makes us happy & what we DONT need in our lives. #Author J.L. Ford

Most important in life, God. Most beautiful attire, Smile. Greatest asset, Faith. Most powerful force, Love. #ihatequotes

Don't judge someones past, when you havent walked their journey! #ihatequotes

If the grass is greener on the other side, it's because you're gazing thru the lens of envy! #TheSW

You'll never know it's wrong until you try it. Give everything a chance until it gives you a reason not to. #ihatequotes

You can't force yourself to love everyone , you can't force everyone to love you. Be yourself , be loved for who you really are #ihatequotes

A great sacrifise comes with a great love. So if u found someone that willing to sacrifise his life for u, then u found God. #Edwin Lau

When you are down......get up! When you are down.......get up! And when you are down.......get up again! #Learn To Be Alone

Life is not about discovering our talents, it is about pushing our talents to the limit and discovering our genius. #ihatequotes

Wasted time isn't wasted if you learn from your mistakes and make a different choice today. #ihatequotes

"If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes..there is always another chance for you." #TheSW

Sometimes God doesn't give us what we want because we're aiming too low. He loves us too much to let us settle. #TheSW

Don't cry over the past, cry to get over the past. Don't smile to hide the pain, smile to heal the pain! #ihatequotes

Whatever is meant to be yours will eventually find its way to your door. #TimingIsEverything

Barriers are those things we see when we take our eyes off the goal. Stay FOCUSED! #ihatequotes

Once in a while right in the middle of an ordinary life, love can sneak up and give you a fairytale... Don't give up! #ihatequotes

God designed one person special for you, just be patient until that person shows up in your life. #ihatequotes

Maybe there are no right moments, right guys, right answers. Maybe sometimes you just have to say what’s in your heart. #ihatequotes

The only thing anyone should ever be able to steal from u is your heart. Your dignity worth are not up for grabs. #TheSW

Believe in people, they will hurt you. Believe in God, He will heal you. #ihatequotes

Don't let life bruise you! Just because you feel mistreated or even unloved.. NEVER let life make you UNGRATEFUL! NEVER! #ihatequotes

Focus on what gifts God has given you & your gift gets bigger. Focus on what God has given others & your gifts seem smaller! #ihatequotes

#taken and compile from Twitter

Deeper side of Clown

2011-06-18T09:30:00.000-07:00

The Art of Sickness

2011-06-06T21:22:00.000-07:00

This is my 3rd weeks I'm not in healthy condition .. I've got sprue 2 weeks ago.. I thought it was nothing, but a week ago it all change to white thing in my throat.. My body just can't take it.. I went to 2 doctors to fix this.. Well..I'm in better condition now.. but when i met the first doctor..the diagnosed is quite a "slap moment" for me.. He told me i might be having diphtheria (but Thanks God I'm not).. and for that i need to be hospitalized.. Wew nightmare !!!! I have to finish 1 project that i already promise.. And so..in not so well condition i made the project and finished as i promise on friday..ask an Office Boy to sent it for me since i couldn't be in the office that day.. But yeah..it's not happening.. hahahah.. the courier decided to pick it up on Saturday without asking me when is the due date.. =_=!!

Anyway.... in the time being.. I've got bed rest for few days.. it cleared my mind that no matter how much you work to earn money.. it will never worth the health.. and no matter how hard you try to plan something.. there's always something happen and it'll screw all the plan.. Sometimes all we got to do is just doing our very best.. not over it.. and just let God do the rest.. He's the only charm for all the problem and situation. We can have hope.. we can set the goal.. but remember to also bring it to God's presence.. asking for His approval.. because without it.. nothing will ever happen...

I also found the peace with dad and mom.. I didn't care who's fault for whatever happen between us now.. but i..stepped up..and asked for apology .. I've come in peace now.. i love my family.. and always will be.. At the end of the day.. they're the one that concern 'bout us more than anyone else.. They're the one who provide us the love and affection. We might not be together now.. but we will.. ^^ Mom will go home..

One step at a time with Jesus give me a courage to move forward.. ^^

My Sweet Dream

2011-06-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

I have sweet dreams too.. You know.. and So this is my sweet dream version

A place where i called home... a family to come home too.. a smile to cherish everyday.. no tears.. just me..my family..and my husband to be..hahha

A dream wedding will be held on the best view on earth.. with warm family..Of course all in white.. soft purple and peach color..The bluest sky on top...Sincere touch of Soap bubble from the kids that playing with each others loudly :)

Softly they play this swaying song called "Fly Love"
and we'll all be dancing ...a beautiful dance..

PS:I miss you darling.. i love you... I'm waiting for you my prince (who ever you are)

Let There Be Tears

2011-05-30T13:21:00.000-07:00

It wipes away my sorrow....

It wash away my sadness....

It tells me I'm still human....

It's okay...to shed some tears tonight, Dear ....

Quotes from One Litre of Tears:

When my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where i can do the best I can.
From now on, I’ll deliberate slowly.
I won’t be impatients.
I won’t be greedy.
I won’t give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.

A House and A Home

2011-05-21T22:42:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been dreaming to buy a house .Since my family bankruptcy years ago, me and my dad move in this temporary house. Next year will be the last of the contract of this house. I don't know where else to move ....and due to last year incident, i don't know if i can manage to get enough money in my saving account to buy a house.

While I'm thinking and calculating.. the house that i really want to buy is actually a "Home". Not just house of bricks. I miss the time when i have mom and dad together.. Sharing stories and laughter. Dear God knows how much i miss a warm home.. Dear God definitely know how much i wish my life is normal. I know, this pray goes out to many kids out there with broken family.. I know how it feel right now..

When i was a child i never knew that this will effect me.. but now i know how much this effect my personal life. I don't know how to tell this to others and not having low self esteem about it.

So today... my priority wishlist is a chance to come "Home". Home where my family can have dinner and feast at the table..and living room to be together with..

Amen..

Heartache

2011-05-21T07:36:00.000-07:00

No cure..Yet.. like all wound...It'll heal as time goes by

Give it time..take a rest..

It will all be beautiful in His time

Amen..

Letting Go...

2011-05-21T04:44:00.000-07:00

The hardest feeling...is to letting go the one you love the most..

I've been through this feeling several time.. never get easier.. All i can do is asking to my self.. should i? How could he let me go after all that we've been through..??

No one seems to answer.. but i think God's whisper gently saying.. "The best is yet to come.. The right destiny is still on it's way. The puzzle hasn't solved yet.." and for that.. i should wait. Wait..and slowly letting go the love..

I know i have a lot of love and commitment when I'm in the relationship.. i wish i could find someone who's willing to do the same.. The one who commit and love me for who i am. The problem is.. i haven't found one yet.. And most of the time i have to let go.. It's painful..!! Indeed it's painful ...!!

Let's pray to God that i can survive another day to live and be thankful for what ever worst that come to me.. because it's only a journey.. Someday I'll get pass through all this.

Trap in a Girl Body ..Burden with Man's Responsibility

2011-05-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

This article was written few months a go. I haven't finished writing this as i just fall a sleep that night.

Here's something i said that night as i speak to my loved one. In general, this is something i found have been faced by thousand single mothers, top business women, or simply a woman who has mouths to feed. This women tends to be the man in the house. Every decision, every financial responsibility, and every future plan need to be made by themselves. This is the shoes that need to be taken whether they like it or not.

Women figure however they are more adaptable to the condition. Women are more likely stronger and easily to find jobs to make small money to feed the needs.. Street fighter skill might be needed sometimes hahahahaha..Well that's just the extreme way to say how women this days are tougher.

The problem is, women have lots of extra feeling in the middle of struggle sometimes. So of course the crying session is always becoming the drama opening. Yes..it is.. at first.. but yes.. we deal with the problem in the end.

Stand Up Ladies.. !!! Let's hit it !! ^^

Happily Ever After

2011-05-05T13:12:00.000-07:00

My first article after happy journey I've gone through.. But Spring is up..!! and My love life is not so spring anymore..i'm back to write again.. :)

The most sold out idea is to have prince charming come and fight for a lady.. She can be princess to simply maid. But the Prince Charming will always be ready to fight for her.. That's such a beautiful idea..and every little girl read this or heard this from their mommy most of the time. Yet... reality doesn't always have a happy ending.

My Friends.. girlfriends..are mostly already married or expecting a baby. Some are still preparing the engagement and be newly wed this days.. And so i heard the story is always sweet..romantic..and never expected.. Of course the brave of the Groom side is always needed to progress the relationship. Therefore i know that Happily Ever After do exist.. but.. when it comes to my love department.. hmm.. i'm still wondering if there's any Prince Charming who's willing to fight for me. Yeah..the clock is ticking.. and so is my other problem haven't been solved yet ..

Life is being complex for me lately.. Somehow i don't know how to solve 'em all.. But once again.. all i have to do is doing my best and let God do the rest... Happily Ever After do exist someway..somehow..

Oh and BTW, living proof of fairytale should be Prince William and Kate Middleton

may they live happily ever after ^^

Ten - Eleven

2010-12-31T11:19:00.000-08:00

Yayyy it's already at the end of 2010.. Another year has passed... real quick...with more mistakes and downfall but also comes with the packages of happiness and rewards in life.. I Thank God for his guidance through out the year. For giving me experiences that makes me a better woman.

The OLD is where the black and white memories live..
Struck me with tears and laughter.
Complete my puzzle as i walk and gain more piece..
Filled my heart with memories.

The NEW is where i start an adventure
a new gate to open..
Give me a chance to find more destiny
a new layer to peel..

Stand in between..
Makes me realize of whom i have left behind
Faces and Moments that will endure forever
Makes me awake of what future might bring
Journeys and Treasures that will awaits my presence

Happy New Year's Eve and Happy New Year my friends... What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.. God Speed .. ^^ Bless us all

The Warmest days of the year

2010-12-25T20:21:00.000-08:00

Christmas is where our heart set after a full long year of working. A
journey stop to enjoy a warm Christmas Day with dearest people around us.

My Christmas and new year comes with tradition of cooking and gathering around Christmas show on TV.. never changed for 26 years of my life. Family always comes first by far. Prayers and songs accompany the whole day of happiness. The blessings filled the air on every places I've seen.

Thank God that this Christmas i still have my family around.. ^^ Be Merry !!

Black And White

2010-11-13T19:15:00.000-08:00

If there is Night and Day, Sadness and Happiness, Sun and Moon, Good and Evil,

there's also Black and White.

Today i inspired with two basic colors i love the most, which is "Black and White". The colors is so inspiring and such a strong color statement indeed. I'm in love with every Back and White theme, color, and picture.. yet my addiction still doesn't effect my closet or even my Blog theme hahaha..

According to Wikipedia, White is a color, the perception which is evoked by light that stimulates all three types of color sensitive cone cells in the human eye in nearly equal amounts and with high brightness compared to the surroundings. While Black is the color of objects that do not emit or reflect light in any part of the visible spectrum; they absorb all such frequencies of light. Although black is sometimes described as an "achromatic", or hue less, color, in practice it can be considered a color.

This white and black has the biggest visual contrast, this can easily be associated to other opposite concepts. In Chinese philosophy, this two contrary color create a great symbol of Yin and Yang. Taoism taught the concept of Black and White in Yin and Yang symbol to describe how polar or seemingly contrary forces are interconnected and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other in turn. Yin yang are complementary opposites that interact within a greater whole, as part of a dynamic system. Everything has both yin and yang aspects, but either of these aspects may manifest more strongly in particular objects, and may ebb or flow over time.

As for myself, black and white give a great balance makes a great silhouette of sexiness and edginess in life. What amazing color isn't it !!

"There's something strange and powerful about black-and-white imagery ~ Stefan Kanfer"

Eat, Pray, Love

2010-10-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

We as human being having basic needs for Food, Clothes, and House. But i guess in life we end up only need to Eat, Pray, and Love. A certain way of living your life to the fullest.

Yesterday i watched this movie. It was played on my nearest movie theater, my boyfriend and i decided to go and see the movie. I've seen the book review before, so i kinda interested to see the story in movie scene. The big idea is about a life that seems to be ordinary and simple sometime is not enough and you've got to do some "Attraversiamo" (let's cross over).

Live without eat is impossible.. but to eat without desire and hunger is bare. Sometimes we do things out of habits.. Everything has to be done by working from 8 to 5, eat, hang out on the weekend, church on Sunday..etc. All based on a habitual day to day activities. By the time we realize it, we already become a person with no desire and what so ever about life it self..because it so plain and boring. A get away ..a great new neighborhood.. good friends and companion ..marvelous wine..with authentic food will give a super boost to break away from the boredom bubble. And for Elizabeth in the movie, She get away to Italy ~ savoring Italy's buffet of delights.

Having the time of your life ..have fun and to eat from heart not out of diet program give us big enchantment (and of course big belly too..haha), but it's not enough.. the concept of having Bigger Power in universe (by all mean is God) finally comes along to make peace with our self. This Greatest Power will end up finding us some enlightenment ..a way.. a vision and guidance in life. A part of having balance in life it self. As for my self, i found my self in Jesus Christ's hand. For Elizabeth, she choose to meditate in India.

Will that be all? Friends, Family, Guidance .. filled your life and at some point you think is enough.. But what about life time companion? Dare decision to love someone?

Life takes guts.. Love takes a leaps of faith. I was one wrote the fact of being single at 40 is fine.. but is it going to enough? I say now, it's fine..nothing's wrong about being single, but sometime, it's just not enough. And i love the fact that every woman doesn't need a Man, Woman need Champion. Someone to win her heart and dare to face the crazy life together. In my opinion, love choose us, it's not us who choose who we want to love, because sometimes, it's just happen. You might end up loving the wrong guy before you finally meet the right one, but that's journey. Finding the perfect soul mate takes Attraversiamo. Journey to cross over. The question is, Do i found the right one already? Let time answer it for me ^_-. As for Elizabeth, She find her champion in Bali, Indonesia.

LIfe is a quest my friend.. Don't give up in the middle.. Somehow, what you're looking for is actually very near....only a step away.

29700

2010-10-24T18:56:00.000-07:00

Just having the time of my life within the last 2 days. Two special days I've been waiting has passed and i missed it already. Those days were the days i spent with the loved one.

Funny thing is, we got 3 times IDR 29700 bill repeatedly. I don't know why the numbers keep popping, but 3 times within 2 days mean something for me.. People say 3 times is a charm.. So i keep my finger cross that it has a good meaning to our relationship.

It's a superstitious things but sometimes God is a good adviser. He can use anything to sending us the signal. As far as i believe, He also never make things happen coincidentally. Everything happens for a good reason. Even the bible recorded Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

According to my stupid and random interpretation .. if i try to calculate the numbers 2+9+7+0+0= 9. Nine is the highest single-digit number in the decimal system. According to Wikipedia, if you multiply nine by ANY natural number, and repeatedly add the digits of the answer until it is just one digit, you will end up with nine. What a number!!

At 26 Step of My Life..

2010-10-10T22:27:00.000-07:00

I should have post this a month a go.. I haven't done it because I've been busy spending time with my precious Birthday Gift. Curious huh?? hahaha.. I'll tell the story in a bit..

Ok.. My birthday happen 34 days ago.. The day that made me happy today.. not just because i gain more age.. more good friends..or more wisdom ..but i found something impossible has become something possible and real. And that was my sweetest birthday gift ever.

I met someone in late May to early June 2010.. Just a typical guy like my any other guy friends.. I didn't feel him at first.. but the conversation never stop.. We talk almost everyday..to the moment i suddenly miss him when he weren't around.. World Cup 2010 event has become our closure moment.. We've been discussing so many things since then. The funny thing is .. we never really thought we would like each other.. We also never think that we might have a chance to be together.. So many fight and tears just to get to this day. So .. to us.. the word 'WE' in 45 days ago is impossible.

But i guess life as we know it, is always has a twist on its own. I learn a lot not to quit easily in life..and on my 26 step of my life i have been shown twice that "impossible" is unrealistic. The word "impossible" only exist for people who easily giving up. My first lesson was at my 21st of my life.. My bachelor degree thesis seems impossible to be done only for 3 months with the fact that my 2nd supervisor lecturer is seriously ill and had to make bed rest for 2 month..yet i finally found out Jesus make it possible.

Today.. a month after my 26th birthday, I'm still facing another "impossible" situation.. but this precious gift and wisdom give booster strength to continue on my foot step.

So..no matter what happen in life.. when you feel like the road block is too much.. don't quit..!! Just Go.. keep moving.. don't give up !! ^^

P.S : I Love You

2010-10-06T06:13:00.000-07:00

Dear Loved One,

"There is only one happiness in life,to love and be loved."

- George Sand -

Love is the sweetest thing to say...yet the saddest feeling to say goodbye to someone you love the most..

Love is never selfish.. Love is when he/she is mean to you and you still want him/her. It's when he/she ignores you and you still love him/her..

It's when he/she loves another guy/girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really want to do is cry.

It's never easy to watch someone you love to slip away from your hand.. but sometimes, life ask you to do so.

It's about giving your best with no regret.. The sweetest taste in life and the most bitter feeling at the end of line.

But no matter how hard it is to love, hearts will keep falling for special someone..

P.S : when you feel i don't love you.. Believe me.. i love you with all my heart..

XOXO

Quote from P.S. I Love You Movie:

"Dear Holly,

I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me.

It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes.

Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends.

P.S. I will always love you."

Good Morning Hunnie ^^

2010-09-21T15:48:00.000-07:00

It ain't just a saying ..it's the way i smile every day i wake up in the morning.

We wake up every day with different feelings... And there were times we get mellow and sick that we seems never want to face the world in the morning.. But having a special someone..a family...a life.. change every thing. A smile always find it's way to rise with the Sun every morning.

So..i think i'm going to prepare special cup of coffee special just for you with special ingredient:
1. freshly ground love beans
2. a spoonful of desire
3. 7 ounces of sincerity
4. 1/2 cup of milky friendship
5. stir together with tenderness

Oww ...and don't worry i also make you sunny side up smile egg with sweet kiss pancake as morning breakfast.

"I went to sleep last night with a smile because I knew I'd be dreaming of you ... but I woke up this morning with a smile because you weren't a dream"~ Anonymous Quote

Love is..

2010-08-28T11:18:00.000-07:00

Love is something you think about the first time you wake up in the morning

Love is...every goodnight kiss

Love is to walk hand in hand..

Love..is riding a bike together with laughter..

Love is ..a house filled with joyfullest

Love is to talk with them for hours and never get bored..

Love is a special gourmet you cook for special person

Love is to shed tears off their cheek

Love is to hold 'em tight to say everything is going to be okay

Love is sleepless night when you can't see them

Love is a smile when you imagine someone

Love is to miss somebody constantly..

Love is to remember everything they love..

Love.. is an everlasting gifts ..

Love creates an "us" without destroying a "me"

LOVE is .. something you experience..has no definition..

LOVE is a 'verb' .. You'll have to work on LOVE everyday in your life...

Galatians 5:22-23

²²But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, ²³gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

Human Capacity..

2010-08-28T03:03:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wonder :
1. Why you born alone..?
2. Why you are the only child in the family?
Have ever questioning yourself
1. Are you happy being single?
2. Are you going to be happier as a couple?
Have you ever think about
1. When this problem ever be solved?
2. When the happiness start accompany your foot step?

None of us wonder..questioning..or think the same thing.. because... We don't have the same problem..We don't live the same life..We don't walk at the same path..

We have our own capacity.. None of us having the same equal capacity to carry the burden..to face the struggle.. Many times i felt so alone..but i manage to smile at the end of the day. Quite often to feel like there's too many problem, all at the same time..yet...i still keep some bag of laugh in my closet.

A coworker asked me yesterday about how i feel being the only child in the family.. She needed an answer to decide whether she's going to get pregnant of her second child or not.. I answered her at a very simple sentence.."Ask God.. Is your first daughter going to be strong enough to face everything on her self when she grow up?" ..it will be best if God decide it for her instead trying to find answer from me..or anybody else.

As for me..i realize something.. I realize i must have been given big capacity that Jesus let me be alone until today. So many thing i have to face.. but He make everything's okay up to this day. So what are we talking about now? What is Human Capacity?

Human capacity in my opinion is integration of individual's skills, human intellectual, judgment, and technical aptitude to accommodate life. We are a cup..a glass ..a jar..a container of Life. Our capacity is given but also developing through time.. and of course depends on your willingness to be a better person day by day. Let your self questioning everything in life.. Have your self big curiosity.. Run your self with a courage to learn everything in life... But make sure you have settled a strong foundation first!! It's important to learn and knowing everything..but without 'strong foundation'..without guideline.. you will only run in circle..wandering around without a clue is useless.

So if you feel so low this days.. remember that you have special capacity. The problem and everything that has been given to you already measure at the right proportion. Don't give up..!! Praise Jesus..praise your self. With Him..we can fight the world !!

Knocking on Heavens Door

2010-08-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

A couple of days a go.. i got involved in a chat about death. It's a very hard subject. I myself ..haven't prepared enough courage to face fatality. We all are immortal on earth.. The D-day eventually will come for us whether we are ready or not. Even though the idea of having final rest from of all our problem and sorrow is delighting..but 'death' is something more than meets the eyes.

As a human being, i shall never know anything about life after death..but somehow i have my own understanding that there will be Judgment Day. Before The Judgment Day.. The death spirit and us.. will wait at the 'pit' stop. And then..There will be time come for all of us to face The Book of Life at The Final Gate.

The Judgment day is is the final and eternal judgment by God of all nations.It will take place after the resurrection of the dead and the Second Coming of Christ as it was written at Revelation 20:12–15.

¹²And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works.

¹³And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works.

¹⁴And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death.

¹⁵And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.

Revelation is definitely one final book of New Testament that remind us to consistent evaluating our daily basis life performance. This will continually become my concern of how i choose and decide everything in life. Because the final....the ending... has to be the the great finale.As it only happen one time. There will be no regrets afterward.

So.. before i face my God Almighty ..there are preparation to make.. The true Question is..What will you do? You know this..you believe this will surely happen.. if you know when is your final day..what are you going to do about it? If there are only seven (7) thing to do before you pass away..what will it be?

I choose the number of seven here because the repeated occurrence of the number seven contributes to the overall unity of Revelation. While several numbers stand out—3, 4, 7, 10, 12, 24, 144, 1000—seven appears to have a special significance. There are seven churches symbolized by seven lamp stands (1:20); the churches have seven angels symbolized by seven stars (1:20); there are seven spirits before the throne of God, symbolized by seven lamps (4:5), and also by seven horns and seven eyes (5:6); the judgment scroll has seven seals (5:1) with a corresponding set of seven "seal judgments"; the seventh seal unleashes seven "trumpet judgments," which are heralded by seven angels (8:1-2); the seventh trumpet unleashes seven "bowl judgments," where the bowls of God's wrath are poured out by seven angels (15:1); there are seven mysterious thunders about which John is not permitted to say anything (10:3); 7,000 people are killed in an earthquake (11:13); the dragon has seven heads and seven diadems on his heads (12:3); and the beast from the sea has seven heads (13:1). ` www.wikipedia.com

As for my self..this is my 7 to-do list :
1. Understand what He wants.. a continual conversation with Him every single hour and minute..(haven't pray often enough)
2. Read His manual book a.k.a bible (try my best at reading proverbs by far.. )
3. Applied His words and have faith of a seed that can move the mountain (faith is to believe in miracle at the lowest point of your life..and it's not easy at all.. and His words.. can be done if i have a crystal heart ..which i haven't come close to this point too)
4. Preparing the best gifts for my Mom and Dad.. provide them the standard happiness i know they would love to have (don't have sufficient material yet..)
5. List people whom i love in life..and do something for them as much as i could (try my best dear..) so i know if tomorrow never comes...i already show them how much i love them
6. Come close to the unknown friends..that haven't been touch by God..that haven't feel ever be loved before.. give them my share of time and love and courage to see the world to a new perspective to make sure they pass along the good deeds.
7. Taking my final time .. go to a place where i can just sit down..overview all my life and all i have left for the people..give my final thought a peaceful rest to make sure I'm ready coming back to the place where I'm going..

Life of Guitar Lessons..

2010-08-19T15:36:00.000-07:00

The guitar consists of a body with a rigid neck to which the strings, generally six in number but sometimes more, are attached. this simple instrument has been one of the required music ensemble in life.. Big band to simple jam session use guitar to describe indescribable feeling.

I love the guitar since i don't know when.. I used to love piano sound..it still is but guitar has always produce the mesmerizing tunes in my heart. Doesn't take a lot ....just a simple chord from a simple song can be so heavy and meaningful. I once learn how to play guitar....it takes a lot of finger skill to play it..wasn't as easy as it looks at all. The string might end up hurting your finger too. But it feels great once you know how to play a song. My Dad is actually quite good at playing guitar. He taught me a few simple chord.

Ok...I'm not going to teach any chord lesson here..because I'm not an expert at all at playing guitar. I just want to share my stupid thought on Life through Guitar.. through one ensemble that i love the most. Every single thing in Guitar was made with precision and art skill. One good guitar ..starting form..the curve..the hollow part and the neck string.. is produced with heart..so every guitar produce it's own vibrate. Just like us..a unique human being that carefully made by our mighty God..vibrate to one another in our own way..

A person can attach to one single guitar because it has been a life companion. When the blue days and the hardships follow your foot step..a guitar can complete you in a way. Every now and then ..an artist..start their moment from an acoustic guitar. One of the cheap instrument that usually came from generation to generation. A legacy from fatherhood.

Guitars are recognized as a primary instrument in genres such as blues, bluegrass, country, flamenco, jazz, jota, mariachi, reggae, rock, soul, and many forms of pop. So this one simple thing..that you can carry around everywhere .... really can put a smile...or break down some tears.. or go nuts with .. The melody..the tunes..complete every remembrance in our heart.

Broken String Lullaby

2010-08-18T04:37:00.000-07:00

"Absence from whom we love is worse than death, and frustrates hope severer than despair." ~William Cowper

It's not about how much you want a person..
but it's how much you miss the person that count..
It's not about how many times i said i love you..
but how much i miss you now..

I miss you in my heart..
In a place where all the love lies..
I miss you in silence
In a state where golden lies..

My senses..
My wishes..
My Thoughts...
Will remain keep the truths..
of how much i miss

It's not about how much i want you..
but it's how much i miss you..
It's not about how many times i said i love you..
but how bad i want to say " i miss you " now..

What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you. ~Richard Wilbur

Hillsong Concert

2010-08-17T05:57:00.000-07:00

On Saturday August 14, 2010 i made a rush decision to take my part in a Charity Concert. Hillsong Charity Concert for House of Hope .. A house dedicated for orphanage children.

I don't know why ..but it's like a calling to came in to the concert.. a friend of mine Lenny Gunawan message me at FB around 4 PM and i still haven't decide to go ..5 PM i suddenly took a step to made a quick bath..and rushed to the Concert Spot.. it suppose to started at 6 PM but i decided to bought the ticket like in 6.30 PM...

I guess i really can't fought the calling... Haha.. so i went in and enjoy the first part of the concert.. A charity part where we get to know House of Hope.. The dance and choir performance from this orphanage touches our heart... House of hope it self was funded only by pension fund of a teacher. She put her heart and soul to take care of this children..fed them..funded their school and give them love..a piece of heaven on earth for this kids.

The second part of the Concert is of course Hillsong showed up...with a rocking guitar performance..
I couldn't help my self to move forward and enjoy the rest of the performance.. I never really listen to their song.. i was only knew one or two song but.. they make me 'jump' that night.. 'Jump' in a good way of course .. There was 2 song i really like through out the performance "From The Inside Out" and "Mighty to Save".. But other numbers like.."one Way", "Take it All", "King of Majesty", and "Hosanna" was also awesome !!

After the first round performance, there was Pastor Lee preached about following The God Game Plan..Not long after that..came an altar calling to recommit our love to Jesus.. and yeap i did move forward to recommit myself.. Cos' somehow i know that i really know my Jesus from my past experience and He's the only thing that is real when others left and consume me with all of their inner thought.

The Concert went great.. not because it's real Hillsong or not.. but because of the atmosphere.. The Ballroom was full and 85% of it is under the age of 25.. It was awesome how God move this young people... The Closing Performance was unbelievable too.. None of us wants to leave the ballroom because we really enjoy every single part of the concert.. Jesus name has been glorified above all.. !!

The Suit and Myself

2010-08-11T14:13:00.000-07:00

I am Iron Man. The suit and I are one. -Tony Stark

Trying to push my self to write again.. It's 3:18 in the morning..so i try to keep up with the time here..

I Love the quote... Because like it or not..we live everyday wearing 'something'... There's always something to be 'cover' on our daily basis. If You say it's a mask.. you cover your true face from the world...If you say it's a suit..you cover your body from the world.. A good gown will definitely cover and correct our true body form to make it more presentable to the world.. A good shoes will cover our foot step..

All of that matter is because how bad we want to look good for others...for community.. for society.. for the world.. We make our own style because we thought that this will be our trademark.. Because the style can hide our deepest sorrow that we don't want to share with others.

Somehow the suit determine our self more than our personality..
If we can look each others eyes everyday.. we won't bothering our self try to cover anything... Because then the eyes will tell me the truth...the sadness and the joy..the real you deep inside..

What do 'They" say about this??

1. “They're targeting guys who dress like me -- guys who dress hip-hop. Put a murderer in a suit, and he's still a murderer. It sends a bad message to kids.” - Allen Iverson

2. “Nowadays everyone's got the nose rings and the colored hair, so for me to wear the suit and tie is a different way to go.”-Sam Raimi

3. “It embarrasses me to think of all those years I was buying silk suits and alligator shoes that were hurting my feet; cars that I just parked, and the dust would just build up on them.” - Washington Irving

4. “My father used to say, 'Let them see you and not the suit. That should be secondary.” - Cary Grant

5. “I buy expensive suits. They just look cheap on me.” - Warren Buffet..

And so for now...Me and My Suit are one because i want it to.. Because there's something i want to keep and lock away in my heart. One day.. i hope i found someone who will see me beyond the look and the suit.

Well ... it's 4:09 AM.. and i just wish to find the suit that suit me best today.. a piece of textile to cover the engraver of my heart...

Happy Thursday fellas...

Life is a Boxing Arena

2010-07-18T09:15:00.000-07:00

It's raining outside.. the clock is ticking at 10.25 PM..

I Just finished watching "My Sister's Keeper", an outstanding movie about a family .. A wonderful family of five. There were Dad, Mom, Jesse, Kate, and Anna.They look happy and fun to the outside world..but there's always "something"... Kate is the middle child with leukemic disease. As the family grows.. each one has a very special unique role to each other...but they held up together through the "storm"..

I cry when i watched the movie.. i got touch with the characters.. I see how strive a mom can be for her child's life... or how hard it is to let go..that you won't listen anything... It was a heart breaking moment ..

Speaking of heart breaking moment... I've been there few times..Haha.. yeap it's not nice.. You could feel the unseen knife cut through your heart and soul.. but in the end i know i will let things go.. I'm still shining..and smiling.. and running.. The hit is less painful than what i have to deal in my family's affair..

The other day..somebody gave me a clip of an old school movie "Rocky Balboa".. there's one quote he want to show me: "But it ain't about how hard you hit... Its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward ...How much you can take and keep moving forward...That's how winning is done."

The quote is quite inspirational but i already get used to get and take the hit... and thanks God i never get knocked down.. Well, at least i never went blank out.. Then I'm starting to questioning.. "if life is a boxing arena.. how many rounds should i survive??" hmm.. who can give me the answer? However, life is incredibly awesome if i think it through.. There's always some sacrifices need to be made to make sure the other grow and have their chances..

The deal is that.. i know it's never easy.. never..!! Anyone will agree no matter how strong they really are.. Sh*ts do happen in every single living person on earth today. We all having this "situation" that suffocate us. Hidden and locked away in our "closet".. So i suggest us to safe enough energy to face every single hit in life could possibly offer. Get trained from simple hit like breaking up and love .. we'll be doing just fine in the end... Just fine..:)

Deal with yourself and Kick it UP !!

2010-07-09T13:22:00.000-07:00

Time to write another composition in my life..

A theme has been chosen... a soundtrack and a singer has been decided... James Morrison playing well enough in my ear at this very minutes... Love the way he deliver every song he sang.. Ok let's start..

"Life without "f" (friends, family) is a Lie.. Life without "if" means nothing... but i hate "if" in the middle of life.. since i hate to dream just to wake up feeling empty!!"

That will be the statement I've been thinking lately and i put it on my FB .. just to remind me not to wish for something that can only be a dream for me.. Hahaha.. on the contrary.. i hate to admit that i do dream a better looking life all my life. The simplest dream is currently the hardest to achieve... And that simple dream has been drawn well enough by Disney Pixar masterpiece from UP the movie

i honestly want lots of things in life but the life i live filled with lots of "if" words... and the only "if" I've been holding on lately is something i try to "kill" and forget.. Maybe it's because of the quarter life crisis ... but yeahhh life can be strange and melancholic sometimes..So here's 7 tips for our melancholic mood:

1. Sleep on it.. You might feeling better tomorrow
2. Listen a good "soul" song
3. Contact all of your friend and make a date with them hahaha
4. Write it down to loosen up the heart beat
5. Sing at the top of your lung... (Hahahaha it works for me just fine)
6. Laugh about it and take it easy on yourself
7. Pray ...just pray... God is the final answer.. :)

Well ...since i believe 7 is the perfect number... let's just finish it up and sleep on it.. There's still sun shining for us everyday..that means new hope.. new start is still available in store ;)

....... and moving on my life with James Morrison's ensemble ...... We're not lost.. just undiscovered....

Marrying Career ..

2010-06-26T08:36:00.000-07:00

I thought about this, couple of weeks ago.. I even made a statement on FB that gloomy afternoon: "the best boyfriend so far is work".

Girls quite agree with the statement haha .. I myself honestly facing women that haven't got married at my workplace.. They doesn't seem to bother about it and the way i see it they enjoy their life as much as anybody else.. They make their own agenda with each other.. Traveling to places and they definitely can pay their own bills..their own car..and of course their own style.

From other blog I've read recently, there is the right term for this condition. It's incel (Involuntary celibacy (or incel) is the state of a person who has not established an intimate relationship or engaged in sexual intercourse for reasons other than voluntary celibacy or sexual abstinence. The term is used especially for people who, despite general expectations, have had little to no sexual or romantic experience. Incel generally affects males more than females)

Women probably having their own struggle about this, but i believe women are a strong creature. They will grew stronger anyhow..

And so there were this one particular woman that stand out among those amazing unmarried woman at my workplace. A strong woman figure indeed. She decided to move on her career at Jakarta recently. She drive her own car to travel 674 km long journey this morning. I knew her as a "Loud" figure that sound her voice because she believe in her opinion. She never retreated. Keep moving with her enthusiasm and ideology. Hahaha.. it's hard to face this kind of woman.. but i admire her in my own way. I learn about determination through her eyes...

She probably decide marrying her own career as she hit 40 this year. She doesn't lack of anything at all. She feels and looks complete all the way. I don't know how she did it but as i said goodbye to her yesterday.. She advice me to always ask God : "What He wants me to do? What way should i take?" and always believe that everything we do ..we do it for God. We are just servants of God.. we shall obey His words.

I almost cry yesterday hahaha but i kept it in my heart and i promise my self to get stronger and stronger everyday just like her...

Good bye to you Ms. TBRD I will see you somewhere in the future. Keep fighting for what you believe... ^^

little sarcastic joke:

http://www.cartoonstock.com

and as for myself: " I'd rather to be incel than to marry a guy because of his money"

Dear Mi Amigos

2010-06-20T10:23:00.000-07:00

It’s my second night at my best friend’s house. A very warm house indeed.

I needed a get away lately..just a little change from routine to make my mind ease a little bit. Thanks God, he hears my plea and found me one character that understand me and very much like me in the end hahaha. She's a friend from Senior High at St. Maria, Surabaya, East Java. Never thought we came to the same University and Now we’re at the same office. She’s a very fun person. Her personality is very warm and definitely can light up the day for sure.

We were just friend, but now is more like best friend because she now knew the side that i’ve never showed to anyone else. Hahaha it wasn’t easy for me but when things aren’t so easy like this days.. i decided to open myself a bit more. Turns out .. it help a lot. At least the burden feels like has been taken an inch from my shoulder. Things that i thought i can handle my self will be easier to deal.

There are also other best friends that come and go in my life . The way i see it, they are unique in their own way.. Haha i can’t say it in details but they also come at my best and worst life experience.

There were good friends that accompany me too lately.. they help me share a ‘beer’ i called loneliness. Haha the quote i grab from “piano man” lyric (signature song from Billy Joel at 1973). A song that has been introduced lately by a new friend.

I like the way Billy Joel wrote the lyric of life and put them down together at the bar setting. I didn’t get the point actually, but my friend explain it to me wisely. Hahah.. so even if i didn’t really like the melody, i still love the essence of this song.

I’m now learning more about friendship .. learning to make friend with life it self in it’s own unique way.. This time from a different setting ..with different melody.. If it’s not working we’ll find another ..

So let’s put us a smile and grab as many friends as we can a long the way..

SPECIAL THANX TO: my Friends Warm Family

^^ JBU guys forever n ever ^^

Me and SpongeBob.. YayYY!!

2010-06-17T01:13:00.000-07:00

Ok..here we go again.. haha another sunny day in the early evening.. I should be happy because the sun is shining and knowing i have lots of good friends around me.Just like one cartoon character that i love the most "SpongeBob" !! hahahaha

Yap i'm talking about SpongeBob SquarePants the American television series that created by marine biologist and animator Stephen Hillenburg. Much of the series centers on the exploits and adventures of the title character and his various friends in the underwater city "Bikini Bottom."

It's one character that was created with no gender (Stephen Hillenburg, had previously denied that SpongeBob was gay in 2002. He clarified that he considers the character to be almost asexual)and specifically one character that will never go blue. This Yellow Sponge always look fun to watch. Hahaha so many funny things i found in that movie. Just the movie i need this days.

I've watch the series so many times.. and never got bored with it. I love the way he make friends.. no prejudice..no complaining..and always find a way to think positive. Even chasing jellyfish is fun or.. simply doing his regular job at Mr. Krab's place can be adventurous. SpongeBob laughs is always contagious.

This one simple character is one of my idol. Hehehe I love you SpongeBob..!!!

Today Daily Devotion

2010-06-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

Couple of days ago i subscribe to"Live Full Lives' Daily Devotion" . I never know that it will be useful for me. I even forgot why did i sign up for this hahaha.. But now, it has been a daily devotion for me every time i check on my emails.
I believe we need good words to built us up. Because we never know how many curses people unintentionally say to us. If we keep those bad words.. our soul will be damage too. Click on this page to add more information about this.. but allow me to share my devotion of the day about History Maker now.

Tuesday, June 15th 2010

History Maker in icare

Today I will share the 10 criteria of how to be someone who have the Spirit of "iCare"

1. Someone whose opinion deserves appreciation and have wide perspective.
2. Someone who can help others from a negative attitude into a positive attitude
3. Someone who can motivate, strengthen, encourages, encouragement and inspiration to others
4. Someone who can bring others to know the people around him more successful and accomplished
5. Someone who can find ability / talents in the lives of others
6. Someone who has a positive outlook and attitude of a winner
7. Someone whose life is pure, holding fast to the integrity and honesty
8. Someone who can laugh at life and sometimes can laugh at himself lightly, and not make life very seriously
9. Someone who used to say I am a lucky man and I should be grateful
10. Someone who teaches us to understand the principles of excellence

God wants to make you and i as history makers but not everyone will be "History Maker". Where are you standing right now?

Let's not make them as a manual guidance.. But as a good check list to our own self so maybe one day we'll be standing as History Maker.

"Wherever you go, no matter what the weather,

always bring your own SUNSHINE."

Anthony J. D'Angelo, The College Blue Book

SEXy me in The CITY

2010-06-11T01:19:00.000-07:00

Night night ..!! I Just got back from watching another movie sequel i love since high school. It's Sex and The City 2. I really ..really ....in to this movie because it tells a lot about being a girl.. friendship and of course about being a woman. There's always something Funny ..Sassy and Catchy about the story line..

This time, Carrie show me how she try to maintain the relationship..Not just to get the one that she love the most but also how to keep the "sparkle" in the relationship. It's not about what others might think .. it doesn't have the manual either.. You just gonna have to make the best effort that suit both of you the most.

The Sex and The City 2 take place at the marvelous Abu Dhabi city. Such an exotic place ..of course with such a deep Moslem culture. Lots of fashion show going on that Arabic desert. Honestly, they wear Fashion that i don't even understand. hahaha.. but i guess this movie intentionally packed all the value under the Fabulous Artist, Labels, and Places. Of course with sarcastic joke in the name of Sex eventually.

Tips I noted about being in a relationship according to Sex and The City 2 especially for girls :
1. Please stop the nagging girl friend act thing.. (hahaha i guess i did that once)
2. Stop being so confusing and tell the guys what you really want. You definitely don't want them to guess your untouchable mind.

3. Just lower your expectation about how a relationship should do.
4. Take a little break is also healthy for special situation.
5. Forget what u should and u shouldn't do according to your friend and your family opinion..It's your life.. Your Relationship..!!
6. Throw away all the manual because love and romance comes naturally ^^

Failure and Teardrops is the Beginning and the Gems

2010-06-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

Allow me to start this with a saying i made a few days ago:
"I was looking out the window... Then i was trying to find the door to the place I've been looking at. I can't seem to find it anywhere. But i'm not giving up. Because if i can still see them through the window.. i know i will be out there someday.."

There were times when we suddenly got wiser in life. Those moments are rarely comes from repeated success. The moment of failure is the best moment of our life. I can say this because without failure i wouldn't appreciate my success.

Ir. Ciputra him self spoke the fact about the true entrepreneur arise from many failures more than anyone else, in order to success. An experienced man like him certainly know what his talking about. Even Confucious would agree by saying this quote "Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall."

This year ..i believe is going to be the start of the Golden Years. But believe is not what i have seen. Many down fall happens but how i try to keep them as a stepping stone under my foot is the real challenge. Believing and understanding the real success takes processing time. Woman at my age tend to see the sparkling moment but forgetting the sweat and teardrops that has been the gems to sparkle the moment itself. Been through so many things in life, has broaden my perspective.

Please learn to be grateful with me now.. it's hard but it's not going to be harder than facing life with ungrateful fillings... Bear with me and hold on tight to yourself every time the storm come. We can make it someday!

This minute.. " I'm still looking through the window and collecting teardrops one at a time to purchase one good big grin smile at the same time "

Robin Hood the Movie 2010

2010-06-05T10:00:00.000-07:00

Today as i finished working at my office exhibition.. i decided to watch this old school movie with one of my friend. I'm not a war movie addict .. but i guess then i realize how much i hate war between mankind. I hate to see the blood spilled for any reason. I believe the only war to make is war against Evil..Devil..or Lucifer itself. They are the reason we battle our everyday life. If we realize it way before..Crusade wouldn't happen. A mother wouldn't loose her beloved child.. A wife wouldn't loose her brave husband.. A child wouldn't loose a Father and Brothers...

Out of this movie i also realize the fact why England learn not to be a "Tyranny" upon it colony.. Tyranny only bring failure.. and a "Lousy" King will only bring disunity.. A good learner needs to evaluate them selves through every life experience.

This time i watch the other side of Robin Hood movie with a good history value. But i still hate war in any days.. in any ways.. in any means... May God Bless us all ..

Jacqline Cellosse..salute!!

2010-05-30T04:24:00.000-07:00

I want to write this because i realize her problem is a lot worst than mine. I thought my problem was big enough. I was a shame about my life..but now, i believe keeping the story alive makes a world a better place for everyone, because i understand everyone having their own problem. I share this because i want to share the strength i have within every problem.

This week.. bad news always come to me.. The financial problem in my family gotten worst since my Dad made a wrong decision again. I can not say it's all his fault.. because i believe every path i have to go through happen for a good reason.

This week every material thing i owned back to Jesus. None of things we have on earth stays forever. It's all only a temporary gift from God. He gave everything He can take everything too. This is such a bad week for me. I cry a lot.. because I'm so afraid of the future. My family turn out having debt that i can't imagine how to pay. This is our second fall. Three years back was our first downfall we thought everything is going to be alright nothing worst than loosing a house.. But this year ..God show that we still could loose our car and not too mention the debt .. If in math equation we know "minus".. in economic major we know "deficit"..in my life, i learn them twice. I want to angry at my dad for making such a stupid decision and not to tell me or my Mom when he made the huge decision, but i don't thing it's the right thing to do.. I learn a lot to be wise..and to be patient. I just took my time to pray and doing what i can.

Me and my Dad went off to Church this morning. Reverend Jeffrey S. Tjandra was the sermons deliverer. He is such a great Reverend and Worship Singer. Many songs has been written to inspire Christianity's soul. At the end of his sermon, He tell us a good story about his beloved friend Jacqline Celosse. This is the part where i give thanks for all the problem that happen to my family.

Such a great story about a Christian Worship Singer named Jacqline Celosse. She was a lady rocker that use drugs. That was her mistake that draw her near to death experienced. She got overdosed but God prove his majestic power to save her life. She repent her life in front of God.. Got married with a Reverend and having two beautiful daughter. Not long after her first pregnancy She was diagnosed having breast cancer. The operation procedure was her second near death experienced. Yet She live and survive to praise Jesus more and more.. By September 2008 her third bad news comes a long.She was diagnosed having fifteenth lump lymph in her throat section. At her attempt to recover from this extremely rare and deadly “Kikuchi-Fujimoto disease”, She found out that she got another cancer that the cure is contradict to “Kikuchi-Fujimoto disease”.

Kikuchi's disease is a very rare disease and mainly seen in Japan. Isolated cases are reported in America, Europe and Asia. It is mainly a disease of young adults (mean age, 20–30 years) with slight female preponderance. The cause of this disease is not known although infectious and autoimmune etiologies have been proposed. Course of the disease is generally benign and self-limiting. Lymphadenopathy most often resolves over several weeks to six months. Recurrence rate is about 3%.Doctors from Indonesia..China..and Singapore all giving up. And up to this day She still live in pain.

Her story doesn't end there. Her oldest daughter also having a rare disease that shows white spots all over her body, and her youngest daughter having virus in her digestion that makes her intestine leak. The whole condition are allowed in front of God's eyes. Yet She didn't yell to god to ask why.. She said this on one of her video interview : "Although my body has been damaged, I will not giving up my faith. I never doubted the goodness of God in life."

Her story are so real and it does happen to Christian community. Her story is a true inspiration that we shall walk by faith and not by sight.

As long as i can breath i want to leave a legacy.. A foot print from every article I've made, Something to make them notice they're not alone.. If Jesus allows all the problem come to us.. He will not far from us.. Jesus will show us the true courage and faith. Our story is a great inspiration among others. No matter what the out comes.. Whether there's a way out or not.. We didn't race for a good material thing in life but for a life after death.

Romans 8:28:

^"28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

Jeremiah 29:11:

¹¹For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

When a Forest Gets Big

2010-05-08T07:27:00.000-07:00

as i browse around ..i found this wonderful quote:

"When a forest gets big, there are all kinds of birds…"

[there are all kinds of people in the world]

There are so many kind of people we see every single day. When you go to work, when you went shopping today, when you trap waiting at the pick up point, or even your neighbors, your friends..your friend' friends...your co worker... None of them are the same. Even a twin has their own specific identity.

We live everyday facing them and maybe becoming them.. People we hate the most is somehow the one that actually similar to us.We try to be a good person every day..building up a good mood in the morning..yet we sometimes end up angry or sad in the evening.. It's all because we surrounded by those characters that affect us in so many way.

Just imagine them as a bird tweeting all over the place saying all you want to hear..all the bad thing you hate..all kind of things you might never imagine they would say before. It's like no matter how hard you try to do your best ..not everyone would say things that you want to hear. Not everyone happy with what you do, because they are not similar to you..

The older you are the more person you see in your life... This people will shape and sculpt your character as you grow. You will have more story to tell and to hear.

I admire Jesus for doing such a great creation. No human being would ever create anything like it. Yet in that so many creation ..so many faces i see everyday, I always see my Dad's face.. (well of course he's my only Dad).

As i live my life.. i fall in love ..get some crush.. angry with some butt head ..crying for loosing someone.. i know i always find some comfort from my Dad. As for my self, daddy is the one that affect me the most. I admire how he deals with his life and with everyone he meet all of his life. He still loves my mom no matter how she treat him. He's the best Dad in the whole world for me..and i can't imagine myself loosing him.

So here's one cute little tweeting bird to comfort you at the end of the day

What about you?? who affect you among those "tweeting" birds?? Don't forget to say how much you love them !! ^^

No Cross No Crown

2010-05-06T15:18:00.000-07:00

This article has been long enough wait patiently in my draft. I inspired to wrote this article after the pass over. The preacher take this quote as his speech that day.It's a very strong statement for Christianity. We Christian believe in Jesus and more than that.. We believe that our life is given through His sacrifice upon that Cross.

When we find our self follow the path of sorrow time to time we recall that Jesus lived that way. He carry the Cross all his life. He was destined to bear the Cross for human sins. But in the end He get His Crown. So if we walk on His path now a days..We shall rejoice and keep bear this Cross until it's time for us get our Crown from our Heavenly Father.

The same book title has been written by a guy named William Penn. He wrote this book by the age of 24 while he was in prison in the Tower for the “blasphemy” of a pamphlet, The Sandy Foundation Shaken, in which he had assailed what were regarded as the strongholds of the Christian faith. His purpose in writing No Cross No Crown he describes as “to show the nature and discipline of the holy Cross of Christ; and that the denial of self .On his book by the first chapter he wrote the infinite facts about the doctrine of the Cross of Christ. It is the infinite moment to the souls of men, for that is the only door to salvation. i quote from his preface: "The great business of man's life is to answer the end for which he lives, and that is to glorify God and save his own soul". He wants us to see the Cross it self as our own life and the end of our journey of life as the Crown.

William Penn's life is full on intrigue and has been exalted numerous times especially with accusation of blasphemy. He was a controversial young religious man that believe in Quakerism (one of the Christian Sect begin in England 1650s). But he also well known as the founder of Pennsylvania, the center of Quaker region.

No Pain No Gain.... No Guts No Glory ....No Cross No Crown

Autism within Me

2010-04-23T23:07:00.000-07:00

At this very minute i watch Rossy Show on one of TV Channel in Indonesia. Today show is about autism. Autism is a disorder of neural development characterized by impaired social interaction and communication, and by restricted and repetitive behavior. These signs all begin before a child is three years old. Autism affects information processing in the brain. Parents usually notice signs in the first two years of their child's life.The signs usually develop gradually, but some autistic children first develop more normally and then regress. Although early behavioral or cognitive intervention can help autistic children gain self-care, social, and communication skills, there is no known cure.

Knowing about autism, makes me realize how not easy it will be to have a family member with this characteristic. Just imagine if they were your child, your brother or your sister. They live different. They notice things different. So we might feel that we can't connect with their world. Yet..One child with autism touches the lives of countless others. They can brings out the best in many of the people they meets throughout their life. They can be a source of inspiration for those around them as they leads a happy, healthy life in the process ( I quote this from autism.lovetoknow.com). Even when scientific says that it has no cure..successful autism people prove 'em wrong. They actually can be a professor, author, artist, musician, a basketball player, even as an advocate.

http://www.helpyourautisticchildblog.com

In my life, i feel not much different with autism people.. i have my own world that other might not understand. I keep it down bellow the smile and sympathetic laugh. I cry when others a sleep at night. I put my self in the closet when i feel like I'm unhappy. Somehow, it's only me and my own "planet". Some of my friend even find me so annoying that i couldn't stand still and always wandering to ask things.. (Hahaha.. but they are such a great friend to allow me to do that sometimes).

One think I'm sure that autistic are not much different than myself is the fact that they need others the most. Even if they have problem to communicate and developing the social life, they actually need others presence more than anything else in the world. Do you?? ^^

http://www.seattlepi.com/local/361730_autism05.html

I guess autistic or not.. it's a matter of what kind of world are we lived in. When the world filled with so many autistic people than we are the autistic one among them.

And as a closing statement.. i want to say that none of us is a Superman.. so why bother doing things alone ??

I'm No Superman by Lazlo Bane

Unmarried Woman

2010-04-17T07:23:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since my last post.. today i want to share about "Unmarried Woman".. I think maybe i can be that woman too, knowing I'm still single at the mid 20's.. but let's just say.. every women having insecurity feeling about this statement. Yet life doesn't always bring this to every girl.. some are happily married sooner than most of us.. some married and ends up crying some just decide not to involve with this sacred marriage life.

There are a lot of article about why woman can't find her true love or a suggestion event a tips on how to find the one..but i guess no one should bother with those kind of article.. Busy read 'em makes us forget who we really are. The best suggestion is to accept every situation with an open heart knowing that we are a living creature ..born.. to have a destiny.. I believe every woman have their own path and God plan our life more than just to find the right husband.

Let's go back a few years ago when a movie title "Mona Lisa Smile" hit the theater. I watch the movie with my girls form University. The movie was finished produced at 2003. It was directed by Mike Newell, written by Lawrence Konner and Mark Rosenthal, and starring Julia Roberts, Kirsten Dunst, Maggie Gyllenhaal, and Julia Stiles.

taken from wikimedia file

Mona Lisa Smile tells the story of Katherine Ann Watson (played by Julia Roberts), a teacher who studied at UCLA graduate school who leaves her boyfriend behind in Los Angeles, to teach at Wellesley College, a conservative women's private liberal arts college in Massachusetts, United States in 1953. To complete the story, the movie bring us to visit each life of the student, portraying the women life on that era. Era where women are suppose to cook and not to get higher education nor speak to man at the diplomatic table. The scene is narrated by one of Watson student, named Betty, who dedicates her last editorial to Watson, explicitly stating that Watson is "an extraordinary woman" and an individual who "seeks truth beyond tradition, beyond definition, beyond the image."

This story inspire me much to be the true-self without being driven by circumstances and statement that come and go in our life. To be the strong woman to face everything in life with faith and belief. It's not about feminism ..it's about appreciating woman as a creature as a human that has destiny and goal behind her softness and grace.

Pig??!! Why it's such a big Deal?

2010-03-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

http://www.christienmeindertsma.com

Some religion beliefs that Pig is illegitimate. They won't eat or use 'em.. But today i saw a headline on Yahoo News about PIG 05049. A young designer found that one pig can be use in 185 products. PIG 05049 is a communications design developed in three years of research to track all the products made from a single pig. Meindertsma’s design includes the publication of her book, PIG 05049, which charts and pictures each of the products supported by the animal. The surprise is in the fact that elements of production contributed to by pig farming include not only predictable foodstuffs – pork chops and bacon – but far less expected non-food items: ammunition, train brakes, automobile paint, soap and washing powder, bone china, cigarettes.

http://www.christienmeindertsma.com

http://we-make-money-not-art.com

The article is quite interesting especially the fact of how useful one pig live can be. But more on that article.. i also get to know with this talented young designer named Christien Meindertsma. She won the 2009 index award through her breaktrough communication design named "PIG 05049". Looking to her CV, i found that she's only 4 years older than me. And as i look more about her, I quote from Regine on her weblog post, "Christien Meindertsma is a designer with an investigative mind. She analyzes, surveys and in her latest project she went as far as dissecting a pig" . She use her latest design to help people in a highly mechanized and “packaged” world understand how things are made and where they come from so that the resources involved can be cared for by enlightened, informed people. Her character and her way to communicate her social awareness should be an inspiration for every youngster around the world. It's a good idea for us to know more about daily tools or gadget that we use everyday.

And so...as i read about her and 'PIG 05049', i was attracted to know about Communication Design too. According to wikipedia, Communication design is a mixed discipline between design and information-development which is concerned with how media intermission such as printed, crafted, electronic media or presentations communicate with people. A communication design approach is not only concerned with developing the message aside from the aesthetics in media, but also with creating new media channels to ensure the message reaches the target audience. Wow.. now i know that design is not just about beauty but also a way to communicate.. i guess my tasty art work should represent this.

So.. take your share guys.. A knowledge is a treasure worth every penny in the world ^^

More of her CV and projects can be found at:
http://www.christienmeindertsma.com/index.php?/about/cv/

Kobe Beef anyone?!

2010-03-27T06:32:00.000-07:00

http://www.zyra.org.uk/kobe.jpg

Hahaha well it's not a real treat offer for you guys.. but it's a question about living like Kobe "Cattle" beef. According to popular belief, the cattle are fed a beer a day, and they are massaged with sake daily and brushed for setting fur, and fed on grain fodder. So it's a very expensive cattle treatment isn't it?? Just imagine yourself born as one of cattle that can have this special day to day treatment.. Everything is exclusively for you. You probably living in such high maintenance and all that stuff with arrogant feeling. Yet you don't have any idea if finally you end up being slaughtered and sit nicely slice by slice on royal plate.

Yeah today's article is simply another analogy to remind us not to get doze by worldly goods. World and demon can definitely provide you with all the highly expensive things in life but you'll end up being their slave. An eternal slavery at hell for sure.. So be good.. sit and think again when you find so many marvelous things comes to you. Use them wisely.. and remember not to be Kobe"Cattle" Beef ^^ God Bless Us all..

Why are You not Happy ??!!

2010-03-25T08:24:00.000-07:00

I've heard about this special man for quite sometime. When i was still in college, he travels to Indonesia to share his enormous life.. Today, a friend post at my Facebook remind me of his wonderful story. He has been a light for many of those young people .. They call him Great Role Model!!

His name is Nicholas James Vujicic. He was born December 4th, 1982. The first-born child in his devout Serbian Orthodox family, Vujicic was born in Melbourne, Australia. His life was filled with difficulties and hardships. By the age of 8, started contemplating suicide. Yet, Nick graduated from college at the age of 21 with a double major in Accounting and Financial Planning. He began his travels as a motivational speaker, focusing on the topics that today's teenagers face. He also speaks in the corporate sector, although his aim is to become an international inspirational speaker, in both Christian and non-Christian venues. He regularly travels internationally to speak to Christian congregations, schools, and corporate meetings. He has spoken to over two million people so far, in twelve countries on four continents (Africa, Asia, Australia, and North America).

What makes him desperate is the fact that he was born with the rare Tetra-amelia disorder: limbless, missing both arms at shoulder level, and legless but with two small feet, one of which has two toes. During his schooling, the laws were changed, and Vujicic was one of the first disabled students to be integrated into a mainstream school. But his condition were being bullied by other kids.

Despite of his disability..Nick eventually began to realize that his accomplishments were inspirational to many, and began to thank God for being alive. A key turning point in his life was when his mother showed him a newspaper article about a man dealing with a severe disability. This led him to realize he wasn't the only one with major struggles. When he was seventeen, he started to give talks at his prayer group, and eventually started his non-profit organization, Life Without Limbs. By the age of 25, Nick hoped to become financially independent. He wishes to promote his words through television shows such as the The Oprah Winfrey Show, as well as by writing books. His first book, planned for completion by the end of 2009, is to be called No Arms, No Legs, No Worries!!

That was Nick.. but he's not the only person i know having this Tetra-amelia disorder. I was read a book about a Japanese guy named Hirotada Ototake. His life is also inspirational for me.. He is most notable for his 1998 memoir "No One's Perfect". The book tells a lot about his wonderful experience supported by his great family.. He did everything he wants to do without taking his disability as obstacle. He join marathon club at his school..he was actively doing sport as much as any normal kid would do. For some reason he live much happier than most of normal people on earth this days.

Both of them are tremendously a true inspiration. There's no other way to live this life than to be thankful and celebrate everything that we have.

I close this with a famous quote from unknown author:
"The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything that comes along their way."

Quote from Nick Video:
" When you concentrating on what you wish you had and what you did not have.. you sort of ..forget what you do have "

thanks to:
Lia Sutandio FB post
wikipedia.com
youtube

Nick official website:

http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/

One Scene to Another

2010-03-23T05:00:00.001-07:00

Today i want to share a story from the old Chinese belief. This Taoism parable belief that life has its ups and downs, and does not always go up. Here's the simple story about a man named Sei Weng.

He owned a beautiful mare which was praised far and wide. One day this beautiful horse disappeared. The people of his village offered sympathy to Sei Weng for his great misfortune. Sei Weng said simply, "That's the way it is."

A few days later the lost mare returned, followed by a beautiful wild stallion. The village congratulated Sei Weng for his good fortune. He said, "That's the way it is."

Some time later, Sei Weng's only son, while riding the stallion, fell off and broke his leg. The village people once again expressed their sympathy at Sei Weng's misfortune. Sei Weng again said, "That's the way it is."

Soon thereafter, war broke out and all the young men of the village except Sei Weng's lame son were drafted and were killed in battle. The village people were amazed as Sei Weng's good luck. His son was the only young man left alive in the village. But Sei Weng kept his same attitude: despite all the turmoil, gains and losses, he gave the same reply, "That's the way it is."

As told by Chin-Ning Chu, in "The Asian Mind Game: unlocking the hidden agenda of the Asian business culture -- a westerner's survival manual," New York:Macmillan Publishing Company, page 182. (1991)

That story remind us to be grateful all the time.. and i believe that life is one giant mystery that can not be seen one scene at a time.. It has the link to every part of our life stages to make everything a lot more meaningful.. When you're down, remember that the cycle will bring you up once again !!

a little joke :

Redeem yourself @ Your Lowest Point

2010-03-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

A couple of nights ago.. since my insomnia got worse lately.. i found out that I've been growing with late night show even for such a comedy romantic like "Fun with Dick and Jane". An update comedy from 1977 that has been remake by 2005. A story about young couple living a good life but after a blink of an eye.. they financially got worse. No more health club membership..no more fancy garden...no more furniture..and in deep crisis to loose their only house. That's when the "Fun" begin.

Dick (played by Jim Carey) is 'promoted' to Vice-President of Communications by company CEO Jack McCallister and company CFO Frank Bascombe. He is also asked to appear on the show Money Life, where host Sam Samuels and then independent presidential candidate Ralph Nader dub him and all the company's employees as "perverts of the American dream" and claim that Globodyne helps the super rich get even wealthier. As they speak, the company's stock goes into a free-fall and is soon worthless, along with all the employees' pensions, which are in Globodyne's stock.This happen after he advice his wife to quit her job to spend more time with their son. So they both end up loosing the financial source at the same day.

Even when they try hard to fit in to the blue collar world, they still can't get no job anywhere. Even when Dick give a shot to work in Spanish society.. end up Dick being mistakenly deported to the Mexican border.

They come to their lowest point when they receive letter of eviction. Dick decided to be the Bad Guy and try to rob convenience store .. Jane stand by her Man. From a prestigious family, they become criminal couple. By the climax of the movie, they encounter a drunk Frank Bascombe, who tells them that the crooked Jack McCallister signed off all of Globodyne's assets (totaling $400 Million), dumped the entire stock, and that he paid Bascombe $10,000,000 to keep his mouth shut (as it was McCallister's plan from the beginning). After Frank sobers up, they make a team and, through a devious and well put together plan, dupe Jack McCallister into reimbursing all of his former employees' pensions. The next day, Dick informs Jack of the act as the press and former Globodyne employees flock to him. McAllister is not sure what to say on TV as he has gained the reputation as a generous man who has aided those who worked for him, but the loss of his money has left him virtually penniless. The film ends with the wealthy Harper family driving along the highway and into the sunset. While Billy is teaching his parents Spanish words, another car drives up to them. In the car is Garth, his neighbor who tells Dick he's got a great new job at a company called Enron.

This simple movie actually received mostly negative reviews from critics. But i love how it can show the Enron scam.. This ironic comedy, show that in human life "things" happen and you can be anyone when you hit your lowest point. But how you redeem yourself is the "fun" part. This movie also showed the loyalty of a wife. Jane can choose to divorce Dick to marry other guy.. but she didn't.. She can choose to walk out on Dick when he decide to become a criminal but she choose to be the criminal partner. Dick can try to kill McAllister but he didn't. He can try to own the money for his own family yet he remember other former employees' pensions...

I'm not saying to be a criminal is the right thing to do.. but i guess i just want say that it can be worse.. isn't it?? There's so many option in life but choosing the right path, takes guts. We can judge others life but when we're on their shoes... we will understand them wisely. I'm learning a lot from this comedy movie. I hope you can take your share to ... :) God Bless us.

*some are taken from wikipedia

Rejoicing the Suffering !!!

2010-03-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

Today is Sunday.. the day for my Jesus..

The Preacher took Job, the Servant of God as his topic. Job is one man that has been loved by God for his endurance and his believes.. Even though Satan had put him into so much trouble.. He still believe in God.

The same story happen at 1800 .. A guy named Horatio Spafford lost his fortune after the Great Chicago Fire swept through the city he lived. Two years later he sent ahead of him his family: his wife and their four children to a cruise ship for a holiday to England. He lost his 4 daughters when the ship was struck by an iron sailing vessel during the cruise. Luckily, his wife "Anna Spafford" survived. On his way to see his wife.. he wrote a hymn that we now known as "It Is Well With My Soul"

They were living in a very different Era. Yet they lived with such outstanding believes to keep continued their life with hope and faith... One thing that i need to learn a lot through this journey..Surrender and keep believing His wonderful plan He made for you and i... Happy Sunday ^_^ JBU

How They Did It ?!!

2010-03-11T08:29:00.000-08:00

A few nights ago.. i still can't sleep while the clock ticking at 2.00 AM .. after rolling around on my bed.. I decided to turned on the TV.. Good thing i turned it on while the Oprah show still on that early morning..

The next 30 minutes for me is an inspiration... On that 30 minutes Oprah featured two successful young entrepreneur named Gurbaksh Chahal and Tony Hsieh.

Gurbaksh Singh Chahal (born July 17, 1982) is an American entrepreneur, best-selling author, TV personality, motivational speaker, and self made multi-millionaire. By the age of 25, he founded two advertising companies worth $340 million.

That means he's only 2 years older than me. Isn't that a surprise?? and i believe when you heard about his fortune... you'll say that it's because how lucky he is..that he has all the support he need to achieve it.. But i guess make it in America as an Indian young Boy never really mean lucky.. There's always the price that he paid for his fame and fortune he receive nowadays.

Tony Hsieh is the current CEO of online shoe and clothing shop Zappos.com. Prior to joining Zappos, Hsieh co-founded and sold the internet advertising network LinkExchange to Microsoft for $265M in 1998. Hsieh graduated from Harvard University with a BA in Computer Science. He is a second-generation Taiwanese American.On July 22, 2009 Amazon.com announced the acquisition of Zappos.com in a deal valued at approximately $887.9mm.He is said to have made at least $214 million from the sale not including money made through his former investment firm Venture Frogs. What a fortune!!!! Hahaha yeap.. we see, we read, and we heard their successful story.. But what can we learn from them??

Oprah asked them wisely about how they did it or if there's any secret 'ingredient' on how they did it the first time.

They answer it: " Don't do anything for money.. do what you love .. and the money will follow" and i quote how Tony Hsieh said: " It's better to do what you love for 10 years and didn't get a dime and you end up happier..but ironically the money will comes by it self .. " Oprah definitely agreed with both of them by saying "It's true but people usually don't believe that"

This is such an ingredient that has been a public secret nowadays.. so it's been said by many young successful young people around the world even young entrepreneur from Indonesia at Kick Andy's show describing their life at the same situation..

Do what you love and love what you do (money and successful story will follow)

and one thing for sure don't do everything for money because you will end up making bad decision based on short term judgment as Gurbkash said that night..

I want to have my life that way and i will asked God tonight to help me with the decision..

references:

Oprah Show
Inc Magazine
Wikipedia

Inspiring link on ecommerce optimization:
http://www.ecommerceoptimization.com/articles/zappos-ceo-tony-hsieh-shares-top-10-ecommerce-lessons/

To think about :
When we saw this article please be noted that they are not white people make it in the Big USA isn't it?? They are color people just like me and maybe yourself.. So why can't we make it like them..??!!

Blindfolded way with Him

2010-03-05T10:09:00.000-08:00

Last Wednesday i cried real hard.. and feeling depressed after bad news came up about one of my Art work that has been ruined due to bad package handling. Thinking that i made that order until 3.30 AM in the morning and then i have to get up early just to get to work and post the package.. makes me angry. I suddenly felt upset 'cos i feel like my life is never easy with me in the last few years.. And I was desperately scared about the future that's just seems too far away from happiness.

I made a big mistake when i cried out and ask "Why" to Jesus again (meanwhile.. i already know the reason we shouldn't asked Why to Jesus when we have bad news...because we never asked Why when we are happy)

Yet i know I'm so lucky surrounded by people that loves me and cares for me.. My Dad hugged me.. My best friend called me to calm me down.. and today he sent me this email to remind me how much Jesus also loves me..

This email remind me a lot to learn to trust His Lead and believe that His plan is beautifully made for us since the beginning .. God bless you all :)

When you asked God why Me?!!

2010-02-28T22:06:00.000-08:00

Yesterday at church The Preacher remind me about a wonderful story of a tennis player.

He died of HIV virus from a blood transfusion during heart surgery. One day before he passed a way, his friend walked to him at the hospital and said to him: " Out of all the people in the world, why God put you in this situation?" and so he replied wisely: " My dear friend, i think we both know that when I become the first black man to win at the U.S. Open and Wimbledon, including becoming the first African-American on the U.S. Davis Cup team in 1963..i didn't recall asking God Why he choose me..so why now i asked God for this situation"

The man behind the story is known as Arthur Ashe. The first African American member of the U.S. Davis Cup team, he helped win five championships (1963, 1968, 1969, 1970, 1978). In 1975 he won the Wimbledon singles title and received World Championship Tennis top ranking. Off the court he was a critic of racial injustice, including South Africa's apartheid policy. In 1992 he revealed that he had been infected with HIV by a transfusion following surgery, and he thereafter devoted time to increasing public awareness of AIDS. The U.S. Open is now played at Arthur Ashe Stadium, which opened at the National Tennis Center in Flushing, N.Y., in 1997.
---- taken from http://www.answers.com/topic/arthur-ashe ----

This story struck me!! We tend to complaint about every little thing in life but we forgot how many times we've been given. We forgot to thank God for everyday blessing. And so i vow that i will share this with more people in my life.. and make my self a lot grateful to the Lord Jesus. Yet again.. i know how hard it is..:)

Juices of Life

2010-02-23T01:06:00.000-08:00

spice from : www.tetrapak.com

Heyy y'all... !! in my quarter life .. i just realize that I'm in the middle of Juicy situation.. n yeap i mean it..in my own perspective!! :)

Life is never going to be nice or amazing without some procedural life step that we have to climb. This is undeniable fact that we have to face as a youngster.But don't worry guys.. there is a secret that I'm going to tell you.

The secret is: " when you get press down don't get stress out but think yourself like a fruit that has been pressed to make the best natural juice!! "

spices from : www.emagazine.com

Every time i get stressed out with the fact that I'm the only child and have to bear with the crucial financial problem in the family, i remember that this fact is the one that make me learn how to survive.. how i get my talent out.. how i understand those who struggle...how to make me shape my personality and make me a lot closer to Jesus..

So i must praise the Lord for everything that happen to me.. It happen for a reason and it's a good reason ..a very good reason because i know He always has a good plan for all mankind.

spices from : www.healthnewswebsite.com

V Dayyy!!

2010-02-12T05:30:00.000-08:00

ohdediku.files.wordpress.com

Ahahaha it's V day again.. A very Happy Day.. :P People will think i celebrate it many times..but i guess i only have 1 romantic valentine day dinner. It was fun.. but it's just a history now.

I didn't plan to see movie today but since i have to meet my customer at the Mall, i guess i suddenly eager to watch romantic comedy movie called "Valentine's Day". Very simple title with huge familiar artists to support this entire scene movie. Love it..but there's so many good quote that i can't seem to find on my past relationships... accept this quote " Oh how i envy you guys(already settle down) I'm so tired to be on so many dates " Uh huhhh.. i guess I'm on her position on that. I cry a bit at the end of the movie when those old everlasting couple make up at front of the cemetery movie theater that was so sweet how they fall in love with all the good and the bad of their loved one...

Call me such a weeper but i guess that's how i see LOVE, yet i haven't found anyone that willing to love me that way .. but i guess the world doesn't stop for your tears so I'll keep moving on to find the One.. hahhaha.. pray a lot to God for that ^^.

sangbintang.files.wordpress.com

Headache..!! i need 72 hours a day!!

2010-02-03T23:44:00.000-08:00

blogs.ubc.ca

Big headache lately...because there's so many things to do with so little time on the clock and it's keep ticking!!
A quite tiring week and more to come.. because Jesus has blessed me with a good job and a good talent. I wish i had 72 hours a day... then i will have more time to work and get rest..
So do you need more time in everything you do lately?? please sign up and follow this blog guys wkwkwkwk.. maybe some day we can get petition for 72 hours a day!!

living like a princess

2010-01-28T23:32:00.000-08:00

Any girl will say Yesss!!!!! YAYYYY!!! or what ever it is.. hahahaha
But!! let's talk about this life out side the Bling Bling area.. Hmmmm will it still be fun??

www.thekidsbedroom.com

The prestigious title will definitely a big slurpy thing for a girl.. but actually live in the glass shoes is another case my friend. I'm not making this article to say that I'm living my life like a princess, but i think i just want to share a thought that life is not just about the fame and fortune.

All the money in the world can't buy you happiness.. and being a princess might delight you for a while but you will still have to go through all the problem on your own. Yes.. you will deal with heart breaking moment either!! All the tears will still pouring down to cover the emotion of not having all you want (is it even possible ??). I guess ..even a princess still having things that she wish she could have, yet she doesn't..

That's life isn't it..:) It's fun when you can make it fun no matter who you really are.. My friend posted a status on her YM (Yahoo Messenger) a couple of days a go "Everyday may not be good..But there's always something good in everyday"

XOXO dear Friends

It's like going to the Dentist

2010-01-19T00:29:00.000-08:00

after 4 to 5 months ago .. i just posted my happy news about the Article of me and my Hobby on Newspaper.

www.educationworld.com

But Guys.... things really doesn't just happen with a blink of an eye... By September 2009 i just added a new point in my scoreboard of life. Hahaha.. i just entered a quarter life. But it wasn't such a happy day like it should be. I broke up 2 days before my B Day. That was HARD !! really hard..

So now you see that i just broke up with my 4th boy friend at the gate of my quarter life..Maybe I'm horrible at maintaining relationship.. Yet it's not the end of everything!!

This bad situation motivate me to do something more. I've made a promise to my self that i will be as famous as he is.. I'll achieve what he has achieve!! I (suddenly) have a GOAL! A Purpose in life!!

That's when i started seriously made dummy food from felt (Felt is a non-woven cloth that is produced by matting, condensing and pressing woollen fibre. While some types of felt are very soft, some are tough enough to form construction materials. Felt can be of any color, and made into any shape or size.). I say it out loud to God, my parents and friends... and i guess they do listen. hahahaha..

Thanks God... one by one,customer order came and they love what I'm doing. An voilaaa... Tasty Art Shop was born and make my life a lot more colorful.

For me, this experience remind me the time when i was just a little girl and my parents take me to the dentist, I feel that Dentist is such a freaky scary person to visit. That was because i didn't know that what the dentist do is for our own good. They took off my teeth to make sure my incisor teeth grew normal in the right place and won't harm me in the future.

Some times we just feel the same about the future.. we afraid of something because of our own bad imagination. I guess we need to stop thinking negatively and just move forward even when trouble come to cut your heart like a knife..

We are young and blessed with so many charm, so why bother thinking of our sorrow???!! Dream BIG and Fly HIGH !!

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I'm In The News!!!

2010-01-18T23:37:00.000-08:00

Yayyyy!!! remember the last post i wrote about passion??

i guess after 4 to 5 month soul searching and refocus my life.. I've made a breakthrough on January 17th, 2010. My hobby and my passion brought me to enter a whole new level. My Story has been posted on JAWA POS ( one of the well know news paper in Surabaya, East Java, Indonesia).

One of my dream has come true and my face now can be recognize with more people.. Hahaha but most of all..by doing this, with Jesus on my back, i can make my parents happy and proud. I can't give them everything in life can offer, but it's a simple gift that not every one can give. Thanks to Jesus for showing me such a magnificent way to live my life.

Keep doing your best and let God do the rest !!!

HAPPY GOLDEN YEAR OF 2010 :)

ToO mUcH mEanS NotHinG

2009-08-20T00:19:00.000-07:00

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Well...well...well..after quite some time I've stop writing...I'm starting again today..
I must say...this is really hard for me to keep consistence writing my little thoughts everyday.

I honestly having so many things going on in my life lately. It's not that I'm complaining..but i keep distracted by so many stupid little things. This stupid little things are actually created by me either. I always want more...it's never enough for me for what it is. So lately I'm trying to refocus my life all over again.

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Have you ever feel like this??? hahaha maybe not much people can understand what i meant. Think..I'm quite complicated to understand...and it's because i want so many things at the same time, thinking so many things at the same time...in the end..i'm doing so little things at the same time.. Hahahah...

So i must give you an advice not to think a lot like me...just follow your passion...accept for life as it is today...and maybe someday it will lead you to a happier place..or if you have no idea about your passion ..just follow what your heart tell you to do..make sure it's also the right things to do..and don't forget to give thanks in just about everything you have.

JBU !!! In God we trust..In Him we live happily ever after!!

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ForGettinG...but Not ForgotteN

2009-05-14T17:37:00.000-07:00

I was brushing my teeth this morning when i was thinking about todays topic...I remember i found something to talk about...but now I forgot about it...Well...am i just getting older??

GeezzZZ...I'm getting to this kinda situation quite often. Forgetting stuff that i know i already done before. This is getting silly somehow. I'm only in my 20's but my brain just don't fit in to memorizing little things any more.

I've read some article bout this a few days ago. The article wrote these is one of the symptom of getting less sleep at night. We should be doing like 8 hours or more sleep everyday. Well..it's a good idea if i can really get sleep hat much...but...really...after long hours at the office i want to something else that could keep me up 'till late at night. Usually i use Saturday or Sunday to get a lot of sleep...but i guess it won't be able to cover as much as i want either...

Well..life must goes on anyway...i think i should buy ginko biloba extract or something on my way home...

Ciao Ciao...have a Great Good Friday!!

I wish My HaiR grow FastEr...

2009-05-13T17:36:00.000-07:00

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A typical things to do for a girl is to cut her hair to the latest fashion in town then...just grow them back instantly when it's no longer in shape. Honestly, having a bad hair day could effect my whole day. So i always wish my hair to grow faster and faster and faster every time i need a drastic change on my look.

But the point is...i guess it's not always just about having my hair back.....i say this in several situation. As in my transition age i wish things to come instantly. Instant food... Instant solution...Instant job...etc.etc... I guess it's in our blood now a days to make every thing a lot faster and easy. Time has consuming our life..because we have to be in a lot of place just by minutes. The traditional things that usually taking longer time will be forgotten and left behind.

What effect will it cost in the future??? ehm...i think it's going to be fun to imagine..But...for some reason...i know this will be like two side of a coin... Bad and good result will appear in a whole new dimension.. We won't be able to argue it again somehow cos' it's just happen..what will be will be...

Que Serra Serra me amigos...

DreaM..is what you are made of..!!

2009-05-12T17:46:00.000-07:00

Dreaming...is all i got in my early age.
There's a lot to dream of when i was young just by watching a lot of new things around me. Notice a child with their twinkle eye starring at ice cream store lately...??? They might dreaming about owning the store and having the whole world fill with fluffy ice cream.

Some big achievement coming from this big dream at the early age. But some of the dream may also be dissolve as time goes by. What about my dream?? Is it gone already??

I don't even remember what was it...!! It's a night mare for me to grow up and not even realizing any dream just because i don't remember the dream at all. So really...i say this to every child to every dreamer...don't let go The DREAM!! Don't waste time to be every body else is dream !! I grew up just to be told by others what to ...what school I'm in...what kind of job should i do..etc...etc...etc...

I'm not regreting my life and what i am now a days..but if only i could do things my way...maybe i already ahead closer to what I'm dreaming of.

So ...is it to late to start dreaming today??!! I don't think so.. I'm trying to rebuilt my dream..I' trying to find a new story in my life. I'm trying not to listen anybody else (in a good way i mean). I'm trying to find that glimpse in my eyes again after all that everyday life that's just going on and on.

I started this with deciding what i love and what i don't prefer. I'm developing my skill at crafting...remembering what makes me happy when i was a child. Deciding what kind of color i want to show in my life.

I say it's an invitation for you...come and join me building dreams in this piece of world...!!!!

Working?? Uhhh yeahh or..UhhhHH...yaicks..??!!

2009-05-12T00:44:00.000-07:00

First thing about working is to be independent. Unstoppable buying syndrome attack my mind when i got my first job. In Indonesia is more common to finish bachelor degree or college before getting a proper job...so..i have to wait until I'm 21 for this... I was working as a marketers in Citigroup corporation, Citibanking Indonesia, Surabaya branch .. But was it as exciting as it sound???

First job means a lot...that i agree...but it's not everything that i wanted to... :D

So i move on to my second job as HR Staff. I agree it's more comfortable to me than it was before...but honestly it still not exactly what i always want..

One thing about getting a job is the fact that you work for others than yourself...I personally not prefer to it...I want to work for myself..call me selfish but as youngster..it's not my dream being command by others.

And now..I'm thinking about what i want.... what fits me best and for sure...what makes me happy..Is it Money, Arts, Pleasure, or simply just being a housewife...stay at home mom...??(not that i degrade stay at home mom's job...).

So for me...I'm still reflecting my self within my jobs and trying to figure out the real me.

What about you???